I will act as if everything's okay. I will smile like nothing's wrong. I will laughed like something's funny and pretend that you did not hurt me at all.
but it isn't easy for me to do it. cause it's hard to forget someone whom i've imagined spending forever with or accept the reality.
i shouldn't say what happened cause it's worthless of doing so. i had my shoulder to lean on when i'm in need and that's my sister. and today, it was my cousin. i didn't even think of the brighter side. before anything happened, i thought it's okay to be apart but i was wrong. it feels like losing another half of mine.
why i did my July month into such a disastrous month. falling sick in this month.
i did what i'm supposed to do but sometimes i went over board it. but it's not that i'm being unreasonable to do anything, no matter how i react, it'll be fine after a few while. it's not me being overly emotional, but it's you. you broke those promises we/you made. i'm being loyal to you but such a disappointment, i'm being loyal to the wrong person. the person who do not appreciate what i did. sometimes, it's better to leave everything unsaid. but sometimes, there's a limit to it.
Gah, N level oral is tomorrow and i'm suppose to do my preparation today but those distraction that happened, it affect me a lot. On the brighter note, i watched Despicable Me with Sis and her friend. Agnes is very cuteeee, she look like my niece, hehe. but Sirah said, her cheek's look like mine. awww, at least there's someone who made me smile eh. Eclipse was not bad, but too much unappropriate actions, haha. but i love when the battles began! netherless, Taylor Lautner my hero :D " i know i'm hotter than you "
the weather is so humid now, it adds on to my headache now. i'm having cold sweats right now. hmmm, will be going out later with Abang and sis in law + niece to bazaar. i'm still pending on doing my english homework, gawd. i'm off now.
Sunday, July 11, 2010, 1:58 PM