chemistry had 2 practical, p.e had physical training and then long jump + high jump and at last i could overcome my phobia. hehe. during recess something happened, i don't wish to be a busybody to type it here. math was manageable. english was very RELAXING. had rehearsal after school. it was better than the previous rehearsal. weeeeeeee~ still can do better and bought soya bean and home sweet home!
i sprained my ankle. i'm so tired.
life has been good nowadays despite facing some troubles in school but all i have to do is calm myself and pretend everything is okay. i've been keeping things to myself this few days. i've been keeping quiet lately in school. been faking up all those smiles and when i'm down people tried to shaked me of just like that. that's hurtful when you have nothing against that people. i tried to picture myself in a lonely situation and i guess, nobody wants to be that way. i've been out from the rest. i know, this few days the littlest thing could easily get on my nerve but all i did was pretend nothing and kept quiet and err change the facial expression(who doesn't when they have no mood?).
people do have problems. as i have the most adults in the house, i learnt more values and that's the reason why i didn't act anything harsh. only when i couldn't help it, i'll start to cry. i know about people's problem but i did NOT INTEFERE in their problem. i did not brag about their problem and tried to be a heroin to confront them.
Ayun said i'm too quiet in reality to voice out. cause i can't do it. whenever i'll try to do it, i'll start to tears out due to anger.
i need something to freshen up this thing. i need an eraser to erase those off. those thoughts i have for her/them. i admit, i did made some mistake in between. you have your flaws, i accept it. i have my flaws, i don't think you'll have the heart to accept it. despite still under misunderstanding, i still talk to everyone in a normal. sometimes i feel like quitting school 'cause i don't want to face all those shits in school. i hate reality. but that's what they called life.
you wannt comment about what i said earlier on, just stfu cause i don't need it that much as it doesn't concern me NOR you.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010, 8:05 PM