i can't hold on this tears anymore. i can' take my nap now when i'm even sleepy. i really dumb now. i need someone to listen to my cries. i need someone to listen to my stories. i need a really true outstanding friend for accept and cool with what i am and have. i admit, i have an attitude problem. i'm crying badly while typing this. i need hairul now like seriously! i don't wish to look for friends because they'll say that '' i'll look for them when i'm only in need'' like what she said to me! i dislike people raking up the past when it's actually over about that. despite being kind and good at times with them, they accused me of a lot of bad stuff. hate me for all you want! i don't give a shit about you lah. you're no better good. macam sial ah!
WHERE'S DIRAH?! I REALLY NEED TO TALK TO YOU COUSIN ):
people are being two faced with me. haha. want to sympathy me huh? i'm touch and appreciate it but it's not sincere. i wonder, if within 2 years i could understand her, inner soul and everything then why are we actually arguing? non of us wanna give in. haha, that's the thing. i'm not accusing her. well, typical friendship state. what can i say. i am hot headed person, mum is also being like that. grandparents too. inherit from one another uh. one year left and perhaps a goodbye? i'm not acting cool or what now or even an angel, but this is what i'm actually thinking. you wanna say i'm a hypocrite? disappointing much. kalau takda orang nak tolong kawan sendiri ,siapa lagi?
sigh. i'm going to ignore this and makan hati sendiri. bye
okay the end! story dah habis, takmau kecoh kecoh okay? currently singing dua insan all by myself ;D teringat pasal hairul pula. hehe (: yey ! nanti overnight Mummy's house. nanti Dirah's family semua ada. tomorrow makan-makan at Mummy's house. wuhooo! tak sabar (: okay lah nak siap lah people(: Farah maaf ye, tanpa kau, takda lah aku sampai ke menengah 4<3