iseriously needa break. seriously like a long long break, if i have one wish i would want to run away from the reality that i'm actually pressurize with all the stuff around me. no, its not even about boy girl relationship nor about friends. told ya, i'm not even strong to handle the smallest and the simplest task what's more a bunch of tasks? i have a 9 pebbles need to be done on drawing teacher's faces in just a week, wednesday/thursday is the dateline, my humanities essays, cca with a bunch of attitude pupils, physic and chemistry hardly to understand, ne game development proposal, ne notice board articles(due this coming week), my math test/lessons, moreeeeee ne ambassador's projects. i don't mind if it takes about less than two month, but then everything is cramp into 3 weeks. there's alot of test coming up next. i just ..... i don't know how to put it into a sentence to say how much this task are to me. unfortunately, school extend for the 3E and 3NA until 20 November, that is so damn bullshit. they said, it is for completing the syllabus and preparation for next year exam. i know if some of the poly's,jc's, teachers or the seniors read this, they'll say '' this is only the beginning, you have to bare with it. endure all this. ini baru sikit'' ya exactly true. but i'm the person who doesn't have the strength to overcome this with only meeeeeeee! i seriously need some space in between of this circumstances. i don't wish to grow up, i don't sometimes. when i got tensed up, i can't take it if people were to force me to do something i don't like.. and yes, it happened yesterday. thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry on and those comfort and being understanding and those hugs, thank you so much eventhough i don't feel better after that, but guilty for making you cry );
schools has been so draggy to me.. i always stare at the whiteboard/screen/teacher as if i'm listening while i'm not. my mind was totally away from the lesson most of the times. CCA was the only way for me to release my stress, but i guess it didn't. it add up to my pressure.
gosh, the pressure it too much for me.
later night i'll be going to aunt house to have tuition and hopefully tomorrow i will go for the Anu09 at SSC with Fyee to release my stress. so now, i need to get going and start my damn art. no pictures because i've yet upload any pictures from my handphone. oh ya, did i mention that my handphone has gone haywire? haha, yes it is. my camera cover came out and i need to send for a repair, damn it. i hate it. too troublesome.
i hope during fasting month, there's less burden for me to handle. Insya'allah. Assalamualaikum.
Saturday, August 15, 2009, 1:40 PM