what goes around,comes around.

Hi 1.1.11 !

2011-01-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

First thing and for most, i would like to wish a very Happy new year to all :D i'm sorry if i've been neglecting my blog eversince last month. I promised, once my laptop is fine, i'll consistantly update if i have the time. Oh well, nobody is reading so forget it.

So hello 2011 and goodbye 2010. I've never complaint that 2010 has been a bitch to me. I'm still grateful that i'm still living comfortably with my lovelies around me. Shits did happened but still, life has to move on. No use to dwell over it. My last year resolution, i have achieved it :D That is, get 19 points and below for N level, grow longer hair, highlights, support family and lastly be with Alun. Yes! Alhamdullilah, i managed to get Alun met my sister, lol. For me, that's an achievement ok because .......... haha!

I'm glad i met a great bunch of people before my 2010 end. My colleagues, eventhough i'm not those party type girl, i still love hanging out with them. You know, its hard for a First Try Work Nerdy Girl to mixed around :P HAHA! throughout 2010, i cherished every single bits of my secondary four moments because i know we might not meet EVERYONE this year. It has been proven, we all gonna be separated. Singapore is High-tech so no use for me to say " don't forget me " because we can still communicate with each other. " Nawaitu yang penting "

As for my girls, i've nothing to say. See you soon Farah): i shall try not to be nasty this year.

My family, yes i admit we've overcome such circumstances. I'm glad to have parents that keep on trying to find a way out. Insya'allah by the mid of this year, we'll be find. I can only support them from the back (: Mama and me planned to go on a holiday next year once everything is under control. Once i've moved to New Home :D can't wait! i'll be near to Alun as well :D It saddened me though, hearing mama telling me she is trying to save up more money for this and that. Trying not to buy unneccessary things. Papa said " Once you've your license, i'll get you a car " wait.... " you can use my name, i mean. " haha! Having sister and brothers that cared for me eventhough they're busy with work and friends, i appreciate their hardwork.

My one and only dearest boy, Alun. The very first time we went out on eve together yesterday. The very first time i'm going to school alone): You know its hard but we are striving for our dreams. I really hope you'll get into the diploma that you really wanted. Yesterday you pulled me forward and walk with me and said,

Me : i'm sorry i can't stay till countdown. you should know why. not the time for me yet as my house is far from here and i have no transport to get home.
A: it's okay, i understand. me too, i pity mama at home. no worries ok? one year plus later, we do not have to worry all this. everything will be on plan.

well, he specificly said what is the plans but i shall just keep it a secret :D My new year resolutions gonna be :

chiong for O's and do well for all subjects. Doesn't matter H.nitec or Poly
try hotel frontline as an experience to support family end of examination
forever with Alun
NOTHING BUT O LEVELS O LEVELS AND O LEVELS

HEHE! yeah, i'm motivated. i really hope i can focus more on what i should be focusing and not be distracted with such minor problems. hehe, i've started my dance practice and i'm gonna invite parents and Alun for this SYF :D

This year will just be a serious year for myself with a little entertainment! I shall stop enjoying for now because i already been going out for the past three months, NON STOP till i gone bankrupt! haha. my hair is black now which means i'm ready for school, NOT. haha! oh well,i'm gonna stay home tomorrow with family! it has been long time since we last have a family reunion): i envy you Alun. you are busy fishing and picnic with family at dam, envy you! hehe.

Alright shut up mira, Goodnight!

no speak americano!

2010-12-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

Helooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! I MISS YOU MS BLOGGY :D sorry that i abandon you for a long time. Laptop is sick and no internet @ home.

Firstly, Alhamdullilah i managed to be promoted to sec 5 or H.Nitec.After a long time thinking of which path i should go, decided to continue sec 5. I have no choice as i didn't met the requirement for my English. I got c5 and that's bad. haha!My points isn't that good but Alhamdullilah atleast i get into sec 5. Told mama and she's okay with my decision as she don't mind(: i'll try my luck to get into poly and if not i'll choose the longer route to poly. its okay for me(: my dearest boyfriend scored well for his mathematics and all of his subject eventhu he wasn't the top but i know he did quite well. i'm proud of his achievement. Hopefully you'll keep on striving for excellence k dear? don't get influence too easily. We will be supporting each other as we both have our dreams to go for. Diploma ITE and Diploma Poly(: Insya'allah..

so yeah i've quit my job a week ago. i'm just too lazy to travel to the workplace as i'm having personal problems at that moment. plus lazy to keep myself attractive.. i guess i quit at the right time. mama got her job which is so relaxing! and papa has already started his job. Alhamdullilah, everything has been going smoothly. Hopefully this will stay till the end of our life. I can't wait to get our own house @ Yishun! its either in the mid of next year or when i'm turning 18(: by then, i'm free from secondary(:

so far, in facebook. people has been saying about the courses they choose. i'm jealous! they are officially graduated while some of us ? haha. nevermind, for the sake of our future. we're gonna mug hard next year, insya'allah. that'll be my resolution for 2011.

so on the 17th, after results. people kept on texting and calling me asking about my result. i shared my joy with them(: the first one to know is mama followed by boyfriend and the rest :D mama nearly cried on the phone, cause she couldn't believe it i managed to get it through. so do boyfriend. i went home straight, boyfriend too. talked to mama and i got ready by 9pm, went out to meet boyfriend and paneer @ Adm. went to farah's chalet. we walked. i felt so happy eventhough my mind wasn't at ease due to the decision that i was still pending on that moment.. i had fun with the guys and few girls :D went to Pasir ris Swan with the guys and its scary shit! haha i kept quiet all the way till all the guys escort me from left right back front. hahah! i'm a scary cat! then didi opened up this '' we no speak americano '' song and the guys started to dance and i was like wth? haha! sorry, mira kental. haha. overall i had fun with them! we played story line games in the dark cause we were so bored. we make out jokes and all. damn hilarious! we went to the beach at 5am to get the wind and it was freaking cold, serious. hehe.

soon i'll be going for cca practices. bohoo! haha. tomorrow gonna go beach with sis and her guyfriends. can't wait! need a new fresh skin for myself :D need to dye black and buy books for next year :D can't wait! Bismillah (:

Goodnight and i really can't wait for 2012! (:

Ungrateful

2010-11-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

Its all out. The bomb has exploded and acid has been added to it to make it worser. It make me sad seeing someone i truly love has been disappointed. I've never ever think that we will go this way. But i'm grateful to have a mother like you that has a strong will and smart. You are doing things that is the best for us. Be it the new family member or us. Only her could not read your intention. The moment your tears started to swell down upon your cheeks, it makes me mad. We have never did such ungrateful things towards you before, even him.

Yes you're really prepared Mama. Prepared for the worst, i admire that. Throughout my 16 years of living, i've learned a lot during this stage. Mama Papa, we will be going nowhere if you are not here with us.

I'm tearing up now. Its all because of her. Her bad intention. So are you still saying that i'm bad now? Face yourself first. Now you get it from her, get it right that you're too much. You're being selfish right now. Fucking selfish, in the first place brother shouldn't be with you. But since things has happened, we can't go agaisnt the fate. You should at least be grateful. Grateful that you have a shelter to live in. Its my lovely two soul that helped you out. Getting you out from the trap, giving you solutions. But whats now?

FML please. I love my family very much):

Salam Aidiladha!

2010-11-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

Its been like more than a month i guess ever since i last blog here? MISS YOU BLOGGY!

Well, i have been busy with work recently. My off day was spend with either my girlfriends, mama or bf :D Work? I won't say much because there's too many things happened in a day. Alhamdullilah, i managed to overcome every single things that happened on each day. Alhamdullilah, i controlled my emotions and always look on the brighter note. Since its my very virgin first job ever in my life, it has been good with the colleagues i had at the outlets. Seems like we all came from different world. haha, i know it is so not me to be those types of girls. But who cares, i'm living my own life now :D

My first pay is almost finish. Not so much cause its just two weeks pay. I spend most of the money for family(: can't wait for end of year, shopping with bf! Gonna get a few of new stuff for we both :D

Been spending most of my off days with girlfriends and we hang out every of my off days, going arcade, hang out, karaoke all. Sis has never stop fetching me from whereever i was. Be it afternoon or night time. Finally, i managed to make bf meet with sis :D its the first for him, bit by bit ok? Before alun start on his new job, he used to fetched me whenever i'm in morning shift. Never failed to make me better<3>

He fetched me from Jurong early in the morning just to get to spend more time with me. Finally breakfast with him again after a long time. Gosh. Everything went fine until something caught up his mood and it has ruined our catching session. But i get to share with him everything i wanted to but not so satisfying! Oh oh, he sang and i melted (:

OUT FROM THAT TOPIC. something is just bothering me lately. I've started to hate coming back home eventhough i feel it's the best place to sneak in. I hate to be accused of what i didn't meant to do. The feeling is sucks like as if i'm a kid to just utter such words. Now we are like a stranger living under the same unit. shitzzzzzz. can't wait till i'm 18 and we're out from here and off to Khatib. Near with all my beloved<3>

No matter how things gone wrong, Insya'allah i'll be able to cope and not to pressure myself cause i've learned that every problems has its own solution and have to be positive and confident :D remember that ok? Tomorrow will be going to Nyp Production, impossible that i'll miss it cause i've been attending the production eversince 2008? Gotta meet my ladies tomorrow evening! and gonna start my work after a long off for myself. haha! i asked for it. A Mc, morning shift, wed off till friday. haha too much eh?

Will be on the phone with Sirah and off to sleep. Miss you Muhd Hairul B Muhd Suwandi<3

They said i brainwashed him.

2010-10-16T23:31:00.002+08:00

Few days spend with you wasn't enough for me. But i know there'll be more to come. I know you don't feel comfortable with me around you, nevermind i get it. I won't say much because i have no rights to say anything.

Few days ago, i had lunch with kartina and her two guy friends. some words he said has made me realize something.

" rimas berkepit hari-hari " haha. same old reasons. You admit it too. I'm really lost for words.

Enough! This week i've been constantly going out which tires me out. Wednesday, i went out to accompanied Bf to shopping, well not really shopping i should say. Because nothing interests him. He bought ripcurl flipflop and a pair of black cargo(he bought for me too). We had our lunch together at Swensen. Like finally i had it with him? After a year? haha. Went from one places to another places. Did we had our dinner? I forgot. But i must say, i ate alot. With him around, for sure i won't starve :D

The next day off to Job hunting with Kart :D hugged her when we met. Off to town first. Went to A LOT OF SHOPS, LIKE REALLY A LOT UNTIL WE FORGOTTEN WHICH SHOP WE WENT. But we managed to get into 1 interview and applied 1 form. BORING! We really wanna work at either Accesorize or River Island. Lunch at far east with her guy friends. Then continue job hunting(after her guy friends went off), still no news. Then waited for Kas, Nadiah and Fatin, accompany them job hunt too. It was like around 6 plus? Me and Kart were feeling very restless. So around 6pm, me and Kart went off first. I met sis and her? idk. Went for Pertapis meeting until 930pm. Had to do some work for the Event on saturday(yesterday). Got prank calls from this Nas whatever shit. Get to know from Bf today that it was his idea, he told his friend, Nasri to call me up and prank. It was because, i didn't attend to his messages on time. TSK! Irritated but cute. haha. Back to topic, sleepover at Sis house because the night was getting late. Boonlay is not a safe place for me to go home ALONE. haha. A lot of banglas.

The next morning, went home around 7am, go out together with Sis because she need to go to work. Reached home and i took a nap till 11 ? Get ready and went out to meet Bf and friends. I got frustrated at first because of the weather, headaches, no aircon in the mrt and i have to walk to the middle track just to meet them =.= THE BEGINNING SUCKS. Bf adding on to it! But we're okay while in the train. Off to Cineleisure to get a ticket for Child's eye? I SWEAR THE SOUND EFFECT SCARES ME OUT OF SHIT BUTTTTT! THE STORYLINE IS A TOTAL CRAP! hahaha seriously. They can do much better than that =.= before movie, had lunch at KFC. and off to window shop a while and i swear i want that fox rockstar jacket and tshirt! Gonna get it with Bf. After movie went to Far east to accompany Bf shopping if i'm not wrong it was already night? Ok yey! he got one tshirt which WE both like :D Chill for a while outside Far East and off home.

Yesterday night i was so damn stressed up. Sigh, wish me luck on Monday and i really hope i'll get a job ASAP, LIKE REALLY ASAP?

Helped out during pertapis event today. It was at LagunSari Hotel. MANY TO SAY, I HAD FUN HELPING OUT:D i thought of buying some stuff at Bugis alone but since Bf wanna have dinner with me, i went to meet him for a while and had Pastamania. Baked rice for two wasn't satisfying but Alhamdullilah, it filled up my empty stomach. Had ice cream with him after that and off home. I laughed a lot and entertain Bf's lame jokes, haha. Oh ya, his friend was there after we had our dinner.

I'm so sleepy. I HAVE to stay at home tomorrow. Need a plenty of sleep as the next day, i'll be job hunting again for the last time if not i'll end up be a babysitter at home. But mama going to pay me, haha. Sound funny and awkward.

My dreams is yours.

2010-10-13T00:22:00.006+08:00

I feel like today is just the weekends after 5 days of schooling. But everything is over, i woke up late today and found out that i was accompanied with my bestie =__=" i took a bath and watched AhLong, Singapore true ghost story and Where got ghost Dvd while coating some nail polish onto my nails. light pink! me likey :D then sis in law and 2nd bro joined in and watched dvd together till in the evening.

Oh ya halfway, sis in law ,me and little niece went to the nearby saloon at my block area to survey for rebonding(sis in law) and highlight. FOR MY HAIR LENGTH HIGHLIGHT IS JUST $38 EXCLUDE BASE COLOUR, CHEAP OR WHAT! so told mama and we're off tomorrow before i meeting bf :D

enough said about that. i wasn't in the mood due to my cramps and all i did was watching tv, texting bf and didn't eat. i ate one meal and i didn't finish it up. i do not have the appetite to eat. then watched 90an Gerek(Kumar, you sotong! you act like mariah carey! wth?) Cinta Fitri(everybody was at their boiling point and satisfied after Farel's mother spoke) and Jelita(the ending boring! cause i've watched it online. Jelita should be back with BAYU NOT ERLANGGA!) with family. so currently, i'm helping papa to transfer lagenda malay songs to his htc phone. then i'll be going to sleep since i feel like waking up early later.

will be highlighting once the shop is open and off to meet bf! bf is working @ pasir ris, carrying some stocks to lorry i guess. that is much more tiring than doing the newspaper right? tsk, nevermind as long he is happy. i kept reminding him things that he should do once he's home if not he'll be having difficulty to wake up later. and then he replied this " you know what? you're really cute and pretty. i don't regret for choosing you to be a part of me and i'm satisfied! i don't know why i'm so happy with you" haha, brother sudah mula berbunga-bunga babe. whatever he has said, it has been said last year(: but it's kinda rare for him to say that to me.

Insya'allah we can go far :D he does not affect my studies at all as he has been supporting me on what i'm doing(right things) and same goes for him(:

saying so much about him, it has been a long time since i last talk about him this open right? haha nevermind. Enough said people, i'm tired! can't wait to meet my boy later! Goodnight!

Beautiful Monster.

2010-10-09T23:55:00.002+08:00

I MISSSSSSSSSSSSS MY BORING BLOG! seriously eventhough i feel like deleting it but i guess it'll gone to waste because i've been in this blog for like years, used to be a part of my routine in a day. but ever since this year, this blog has kept been dying for weeks, months.

OH YES! N level is over, means no more art, no more combined humans! me love it <3>

next week i'll be spending my weekdays with Bf, poor him missing me badly and regretted for not bringing me to his dinner with family. haha, however i have plans also(: the picnic was a blast! we talked alot, we gossip alot, we talk about lots of things! we kept laughing and disturb each other eventhough the chicken soup part has ruined my mood, but i gain back my mood right after Bf told me something. haha! whatever mira. believe it or not, we made a video clip @ public but it was not so funny.

i'm satisfied that i karaoke with sister yesterday. All latest song. The lions story singer and guitar so cute lah! hahaaaaaa!

i feel like highlighting my hair, should i? so tempted to do it! if i should, what colour? aiya. since school is over, there'll be no restriction right. my classmates as started to dye and highlight. haha, gonna miss their irritating voices, argument and so on. we are so mischievous! so rowdy at times. during the graduation day ceremony, Haziq made the speech and i nearly cried. cause i could feel and couldn't imagine leaving our motherly teacher. but those misses will not last forever, as when a new year began, i believe everything will set a new resolutions and get a better kind of atmosphere. so i guess, friendship can last but the memories can last even longer.

Bf will be having his last paper on Monday, DnT, please do your best ok ! Don't be lazy. on that evening, we planned to either play L4D with his friends or play kites. not decided yet. tuesday meeting him before he went to work at night. wednesday, we're going out! he need to update his fashion(: thursday and friday not sure, just on stand by if i get the reply of the job on either wed-friday.

interested to see more pictures? visit my facebook! everything is uploaded(: i'm active @ Facebook/twitter/Foursquare. goooooodnight! i miss you, blog. i miss you, bf!

Do the best we can(:

2010-09-28T21:09:00.001+08:00

Hi. Im trying out the new apps i just downloaded. Everything has been going smoothly but not the way as i think(: raya outing with friends and alun was average(: im looking forwrd for next year or upcoming years, insyallah. In two days, the nlevel candidates will be graduated(: im happy but at the same time , im feeling quite sad too): friends and the reality i learnt is all from the moment i stepped into sec journey.Will be short. Next week thursday and after, ill be back. Im planning to work, alun also(: Guess what? I wanted alun to strive for his studies n get good grades and therefore i said, he'll get reward for his hardwork. Like what the government did to the singaporeans student :meritocracy. All the best n level candidates! Im off!

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-09T11:19:00.003+08:00

Before i start updating properly. first of all, i'll be using the OLD number back. to those who doesn't have my current number, it's okay. i'll be using the old one soon. and secondly, Mira here would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Mira di sini ingin menyusun sepuluh jari untuk meminta maaf atas segala kesalahan Mira selama ini. makan minum Mira harap harap dihalalkan dan Mira pasti, kawan kawan serta keluarga tercinta akan menyambut hari raya ini dengan kemeriahan. Salam, Namira(:

I've just uploaded few of pictures just to add some feeling to this blog. haha, so N level has ended, NOT. still left four more subjects which will be end of raya. can't wait! so for this few papers that i've seat, i have no confident much on passing those. but i'll pray hard that i'll get the marks that i expected. text sis everytime i end my paper, telling her that i was having low esteem and the papers was hard etc etc. i know bff and bf has the confident on passing their papers but not me.

every paper ended, i went home straight. but on tuesday i didn't, met mama at jurong point and went shopping for raya. we bought a lot of cosmetics things and i guess our make up box is full! complete set! we bough MAC brushes, maybelline eyeliner, mascara, eyeshadow, compact powder. revlon fleshes lipstick and nude lipgloss. rose ring for myself. eyelash for mama, loose powder from L.A girl. what else? i can't remember.. we went home by 9pm. i was so tired by then.

last weekends, i went to bugis with sis to buy raya things. love my wedges and bag! :D sis drove. it was hard to find parking at bugis and end up we went to raffles hospital carpark. thanks sis! then at night meet family at geylang, it was just for a short while and we went home. the next day, i think i stayed at home. haha.

so yesterday was papa's birthday. all of the family members except abg went to the salon. lucky for me that i'm having exams next week, if not fo'sure i'll highlight my hair. as what my family expected from me, haha. after break fast, i brought papa to the room and had a talk with him, acting like i wanted to tell him something about N level, then when the time was right, i brought him out and we sang him a birthday song with birthday cake that was lit up. i know he was speechless as he has never had one(: awwwww. so we didn't have a proper break fast, so by 9pm, went to geylang. dirah's family tagged along this time. bought a lot of household item and lastly, me and dirah did henna! hopefully, this will last longer than usual because the color is not as what i expected. ate our pre-dawn meal at haig rd then bought carpet and home sweet home by 3am. great start for the end of fasting, pre-dawn together outside with other family relatives.

this is for sure i'm gonna update. last friday we had iftar at rubina place right after our malay remedial class. we had so much fun especially with these girls :D we took Cg's car to rubina while the rest by buses. all i can say that, we girls were the one who are making the place lively with those laughters we had. oh, there's more, some classmate couldn't come and some are not in this pictures. unforgettable memories :D

so today is the eve of hari raya. i'm gonna upload the pictures in the facebook to reduce the memory space then maybe do my art or go buy my contact lense, weeeeeeee. i think i should not do my art cause i can't think, hahaa. not in the mood yet. today i'm so gonna watch tv right after i've bath! please watch suria channel if you wanna feel the sense of raya in you. haha

hehe ok i wanna upload pictures and then have my shower. bf please wake up! so gonna miss you ):

why do i dream of you?

2010-09-04T12:53:00.002+08:00

Alright, so here i am updating this blog.

I can't exactly recall back what happened for the past few weeks. but what i know, the week we had for this week was a crucial one. our mind has to be completely focus as next week we're sitting for the N level, the papers that can help us to get within 19points. I've been memorizing but today i'll be going to Bugis with sis to buy some stuff for myself and in the afternoon i'll be meeting family @ Geylang, last minute shopping. we need to put up the "langsir" by tomorrow cause our days before Raya going to be very chaotic. too many things to settle.

for the first time in my life, i'm going out during the eve of Hari raya. mama wanna get things for us. so that's why we're in a short of time.

nevertheless, i'm not forgetting my exams. which is like, two weeks in a month? it's hard to manage my time, but i'm trying my very best to put aside those distraction in the house. bf? sigh, i wouldn't want to talk much about him eventhough we had slight arguments a few times during this fasting month.

all my weekends was spend by going to geylang with family, girlfriends and bf. but sunday, it'll be alternate, but mostly sunday was spend with family.

this year teacher's day performance was rather okay. mostly i was touched with the upper sec performance and the video slideshow. i know exactly how they felt. eventhough i have a chance to get back to school next year, but it will all depend on my result. i have no confident that i can do well for this year. i have no idea eventhough i've put some effort but i guess it's not enough. do you know that in 2013, the education system for the sec 4NA stream will be change? they will have to do VERY WELL in the N level so that they can go straight to ITE Higher Nitec or Poly within 19 points, EMB3.. It is a good system but i guess the syllabus will be hard.

enough about school. i can't believe that i'm ending my sec 4 journey with a group of awesome girls. i didn't even know that we will actually mix with them. i don't care who and what gonna be said. all i know is that, i'm enjoying every little bits of enjoyment i had in school. yesterday, we had supplementary class for mother tongue and by 6pm we're off to Rubina with Cg Sunita and her husband. we girls, took Cg's car as for the rest, took public transport. we had so much of bonding session(i guess it's just between us, cause we were non stop laughing).. too much of arguments and debate about the food place. choosy on choosing the food. everything i'll cherish it! and i hate when its time to go home, cause i'll be alone till my house area. IT IS DAMN FAR and i was very tired by then.

bf didn't even text or call me to ask about my whereabout. all i say is " throw your handphone " and he start to get fed up. then me? i'm tired and was hoping a GOOD news from you, but end up nothing happen. i reached home, change and all EXCLUDE bath(yeah i didn't shower cause i was too tired) and lying on my sofa. halfway watching Cinta Fitri, i dozed off and family woke up me up to sleep inside. and still, didn't receive any calls from bf. how disheartening!

i promise, when i have the MOST LUXURIOUS FREE TIME, i'll upload ALL pictures once my laptop is back. mark my words ok?

alright, i got to get ready as sis will be fetching me. hopefully we are taking the car. haha but hopefully not also cause it'll be jam. tsk! imy alun ):

2010-08-24T13:01:00.001+08:00

I'm in school now ,had art ,neeed to do on our prelim preparatory research already :D i'm sick. i wanna go home now. i wanna meet alun! i feel like fainting. ok class end now. byeeee!

Never a failure, always a lesson

2010-08-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

I'm dead tired right now. my legs are aching badly.

yesterday night went to Geylang with family. the place was packed with humans. saw A LOT of familiar faces and all i did was smile, haha. my brain was blank when i saw them. i don't like people stare at me, very scary): au kept disturbing those who are " exaggerating " haha. didn't shop much because we felt so uncomfortable with a lot of people around us. rimas! went home around 1. planned to watch Wujud 4 but we were very tired, so decided to sleep.

i woke up late today. nearly 11am when i'm suppose to meet sis at 12pm. met her and off to Geylang AGAIN. this time it was the two of us only. family members asked we both to check on their stuff and such. bought my 1st day of baju raya and papa too :D i loveeeeeeeeeee my baju! hehe, 4th september going out with sis again. i nearly faint because the weather was too humid. end up, i tied my hair again. saw few malay dancer juniors. bought for mama her dream scarf(: sis bought her stuff too, so its like fair for we both. we did not break fast outside so by 6pm went home.

seems like i'm too busy till i neglect my studies? haha, nope i did not. i still did my work. n level is in two more weeks(for four papers) and one month left(the rest of the papers). who say we still can't enjoy a little bit? there's always a limit right. Insya'allah i will do my very best for those subjects. it's not too late for me to start bucking up right now :D just need a little more initiative. a little bit mira.

this weekend i'll be having iftar with my precious :D for two days. hehe can't wait! it's been a long time since we last hang out together eh? sob.

Alun? he was at home for the past few days. stuck to his game and i assume that he had fun too right @ home with family and all. :D

soooooooo. i guess this is gonna be my last post before i start schooling? maybe next two weeks or maybe not at all? don't worry i'll not stop blogging, my dear blog.

wait, i know this is random but i miss my girls, kartina, sabrina,qistina,huda,fitrah,iyla,fatin,marleena,atiqah,intan and kasilah! )))))): hopefully you girls will read this. alright, i'm off. wash up time! Goodnight and Selamat berpuasa!

2010-08-21T00:31:00.002+08:00

You're busy You're busy. NOT even a SINGLE day you'll be free. macam star lah begitu eh? come on, i'm not born yesterday or i'm not a kid anymore. i respect you and you kept lying by saying you're busy. hah! angkat angkat sampai terangkat uh. enough said, i'm just sick and tired with your old rubbish excuses.

Starting today

2010-08-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, i miss you):

i promised to upload new pictures but i upload those pictures to the wrong computer. my laptop's charger is spoilt and going to get a new one soon. i've been neglecting my online accounts.

lately, i've been feeling lethargic every single day. i had an sore eye for a day(that's weird) and next day, my face look so pale until thursday. the moment i reached home, i'll say " Alhamdullilah " i did my homework and revision right after i got home and then i rest at my sofa while watching tv. sometimes i took my nap, sometimes i did not. when it's the time for break fast, i helped mama to prepare those food she made for us. i sound as if i'm tired of working but actually not, i'm tired of waking up early in the morning and travelled to sembawang. eventhough i did not fast for a few days i still woke up to have pre-dawn meals cause i know i'm shy to eat in school. but my pre-dawn meal was just biscuits, haha.

i woke up late on thursday morning. mama asked " you still wanna go to school " i said yes and i rushed off. it was because i was going to my result on that day. my social studies was okay eventhough i know there's still room for improvement. but my eng paper 2 was disastrous, very. disappointed much. my mood was down right after Mr T lecture. he's going to make up have afternoon-night study with break fast together. 3.30pm-9pm, i'm so not going to stay till long as i stay far and my family won't allow me. being so unreasonable and biased at some parts of the lectures. i just gave him a stare as nothing goes into my head. well, actually i did until i memorize every part of his words he said.

i decided to rest at home today. but sigh, i did not get my rest. last minute to expo with parents and little niece. VERY TIRING! off to meet dirah to buy some stuff.on the phone with bf since he's free :D &tomorrow going out with family to Geylang, heheeeee :D sunday will be with sis!

i had some misunderstanding with a friend of mine but Alhamdullilah, everything went fine and i hope it'll be forlong. will be break fast together with girlfriends this coming friday[: couldn't help with Pertapis cause i have school and it's impossible for me to reach there on time.

recently, i've been planning with mama about what to buy and do. hehe :D ALL DONE! right after my N level that is 5oct, me and bf going to shop together :D he got lots of stuff to buy(: hehe

last week, i skipped school on thursday cause i had diarrhoea,stayed home all the way. during weekends, went to hiphop fest with sis and some pertapis youth member @ Esp. IT WAS AWEEEEESOME, i feel like joining suddenly. me and sis were like tempting to move our body because the songs was really poweeeeer! they did exactly like the streetdance battle eventhough some crew doesn't know the meaning of "battle that has to do as a group" haha. coincidentally, my nyaa course " hiphop " instructor was there! she was dancing and her group was awesome! so we kept shouting for her group. then mama called at 9pm to go to Geylang to meet them at there. we walked like "someone who has been chased by a dog" really. i couldn't stand the speed of our walking so i ran, we was like yelling at the mall and all looking at us as if we have to go home early. saw shikin @ Geylang. took pictures before went home.

me and au decided to wear the same colour for our second clothing. hehe!

i badly wanna do something to my hair cause my hair sucks A LOT. i need to do some facial cause my pimple is pressurizing me! i'm going to have english camp this wednesday, hopefully i can be allow to go home at 5.30pm. sigh..

i wanna graduate as fast as we can! hehe, this is long man. i'm sleepy. Good morning & Happy birthday Big Sissssssssssss! & Abg Hassan! may all your wishes come true and be a succesfull person :D love you sis!

Imy Alun!

who am i to you actually ?

2010-08-10T14:25:00.002+08:00

I miss uploading tons of pictures here.

I miss updating here.

I'll get back to you tomorrow afternoon okay bloggy?

I'm treating my blog like how i treat bf. It is either him, my sis or my blog that i'll turned to. I'm in the mid of my revising for tomorrow Prelim, hopefully those notes will get into my brain by tonight. bf is busy with his games since he promised me to stayed at home :D miss him uh ):

so tomorrow will be the mark of first day fasting month. mudah-mudahan, those little challenges i'll be able to overcome it with calm. I'm looking forward to every each " break fast " BUT not to school, haha!

since tomorrow i'll have one paper which will end at 9.30am, i'll be home early than the rest. be jealous :D so after i did my homework tomorrow, i'll upload ALL the pictures here & facebook.

i have a request : please ask me ANYTHING at forum, i'm bored.

2010-07-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

By the way, I wanna watch The Blood Pledge like really I wantttttt! ):

Something about Love.

2010-07-28T19:18:00.006+08:00

My blog is totally dead. I don't feel like updating it at all but since it's like my daily routine for the past six years, i shall not stop blogging. Let's see, till when can i endure with this laziness.

School has been urm, pressurizing? One pressure down which is my Art N level, the canvas painting. phew! Things has been moving rapidly. Everything is about studies, i'll be having mock exam : EL this friday and N level MT oral @ Naval Base Sec. I'm quite nervous for the reading part cause whenever i'm nervous, i'll start to stutter. That's me! ): homework, revision is like part of my "MUST" to do already but it's just me that can't change my habits of being lazy. my final lap, miraaaa! wake up!

Nowadays, i'm very petty. I would be angry over a small matters that is not important until it would hamper my mood, day and such. One of the victim is Alun lor ): we've been arguing a lot, haha. but thankfully, we easily forgive and forget(: Since, it's not the RIGHT time for us to be in that " serious " mode yet. he is busy with his POKEMON(haha! joking! it was only when he stays at home) and his studies(during school period ONLY. haha). We have dreams to pursue :D

Since i said we have dreams to chase for, my dearest classmates has been very cooperative which is incredible, unexpected! We have our "current" plans for "someone" cause i guess we will somehow go separate hopes. HOPEFULLY it won't happen please):

The upcoming fasting month has exhilarated meeeee! haha, even though i have no excitement to celebrate after fasting month, still i'm feeling excited! especially when it going to be the mark end of N level :D

Yesterday saw sis's twin in the train, talked to her till Boon lay and she said " treasure your secondary life while you still can. after this you're going to be independent and maybe recluse? because not all can be trusted. " It scares me.

enough enough enough enough! Brighter note, i can't wait for the time i can hang out with Alun a looooooooooooot.

say about Alun, last Saturday afternoon went out with him and his mother to Orchard > Mustafa, he thought of going interview but the hotel that he wanted was full. Went to Mustafa because he wanted to buy itouch and there he goes, feeling excited with his itouch touch. nevermind, it'll be my turn to buy soon! muahahaaa!

so this Saturday i'll be going to Pertapis care and share event. Hopefully sis able to take her off if not i'll be going there ALONE. nobody is giving me the response! & i totally hate it =___="

i'll be removing my tagboard soon, so anything ask me @Formspring ok? make it lively pretty please!

I've been typing and typing. It's already 7.50pm, i think i wanna take a rest and have my sleep :D I'll be back soon earthlings! Bye!

Ily Aluuuun!

Imy Sisssss!

Unexpected sixteen.

2010-07-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

I'm Sixteen ! :D can't wait to reach 20 years old, haha.

i felt like it was just another day in school. but it started off well, i smiled all the way. because of those wishes on the way to school really made my day a lot. i kept on laughing and smiling. Alun should know how happy i was. eventhough i know it'll be very simple for this year, but at least the thoughts is still counted babe. hehe.

my best birthday gift was, Mr T didn't came. YAHOOOOO! haha, so called free period for us, talked about license, future and stuff with Fariz, Khai, Syafiq n Farah, since we are in the same class. i kept on talking with Arina during English period and the boys started to realize that it is my birthday today. haha. recess was okay eventhough i'm quite disappointed over some stuff. should not mention atleast they remembered. sigh.

ASSEMBLY WAS A CRAP! seriously. Alun and Salih played games and Alun's reaction seriously very "cute" HAHA! then school end, off to Mac with Farah to grab a lunch. off to Art class, did my canvas painting and i'm halfway to completing! left with background and the foreground & ready for submission tomorrow :D hopefully i can get a distinction, Insya'allah.

while we enter to Art room, Faizal and Nabil kept on singing Happy birthday till the class sing loudly for me. i was touched ok. one by one started to wished me. atleast there's someone lighten up my day :D hehe. it really works. around 6 i went off and Faizal sang again, i was laughing all the way cause i find it hilarious!

i was in good mode today. met up with Sirah, she gave me a picture collage & it was pretty suuuuuuuuuweeeeeeet! i nearly cried. Farah gave me a "tabung", i forgot what it is called and WINNIE THE POOH SOFT TOY! hehe :D me love it!

was a little bit mad when i got home cause of mama. so i started to pulled out a long face. then suddenly mama opened a conversation to me. then sis in law and abang reached home. sis in law went into the kitchen straight. then au "Accidentally" switched off the lights and said he wanted to switch off the fan then sis in law came out and sang. eventhough they sang quite "sad" haha, but i felt touched though. it's the most simple yet sweet birthday celebration :D sis in law bought for me a bracelet from Chomel, awwwww!

i made a wish and i hope it'll come true.

once again, thanks to my schoolmate, classmate, malaydancer, girlfriends, boyfriends, internet-mates, Lover and lastly, my family. still waiting for sis to wish me :D haha!

therefore i end my post, Happy birthday to Abg man, Fasha and Misa Leee too :D

Sun rise

2010-07-13T20:21:00.002+08:00

Oral N level : reading VERY bad due to nervous. Picture Discussion & Conversation : some were crap but over all, not bad i guess.
teachers getting annoyed with my class, haha.
Art submission less than a week.
not yet 3/4 done yet. boohooo!
got four test for this week
very tired, sleepy and really want to end this preparation fast!
turning sixteen soon! nothing exciting D:
still not using 8127***** number.

Alun is sick, poor boy. he is down with fever for the past few days, it's quite high. i couldn't help much but have to consistently ask him to eat medicine and etc. now he is sleeping soundly. he cried just now because his sickness is like killing him. crybaby! & gladly, we're still strong as one no matter whatever happened :D everything comes from the heart that is sincere.

i'm out earthlings!

You're better off without me

2010-07-11T13:58:00.004+08:00

I will act as if everything's okay. I will smile like nothing's wrong. I will laughed like something's funny and pretend that you did not hurt me at all.

but it isn't easy for me to do it. cause it's hard to forget someone whom i've imagined spending forever with or accept the reality.

i shouldn't say what happened cause it's worthless of doing so. i had my shoulder to lean on when i'm in need and that's my sister. and today, it was my cousin. i didn't even think of the brighter side. before anything happened, i thought it's okay to be apart but i was wrong. it feels like losing another half of mine.

why i did my July month into such a disastrous month. falling sick in this month.

i did what i'm supposed to do but sometimes i went over board it. but it's not that i'm being unreasonable to do anything, no matter how i react, it'll be fine after a few while. it's not me being overly emotional, but it's you. you broke those promises we/you made. i'm being loyal to you but such a disappointment, i'm being loyal to the wrong person. the person who do not appreciate what i did. sometimes, it's better to leave everything unsaid. but sometimes, there's a limit to it.

Gah, N level oral is tomorrow and i'm suppose to do my preparation today but those distraction that happened, it affect me a lot. On the brighter note, i watched Despicable Me with Sis and her friend. Agnes is very cuteeee, she look like my niece, hehe. but Sirah said, her cheek's look like mine. awww, at least there's someone who made me smile eh. Eclipse was not bad, but too much unappropriate actions, haha. but i love when the battles began! netherless, Taylor Lautner my hero :D " i know i'm hotter than you "

the weather is so humid now, it adds on to my headache now. i'm having cold sweats right now. hmmm, will be going out later with Abang and sis in law + niece to bazaar. i'm still pending on doing my english homework, gawd. i'm off now.

2010-07-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

~~Te Amo~~

typical typical typical typical. self-centered!

2010-07-06T19:07:00.002+08:00

I didn't hear what you said and there you go assuming that i was lazy to do those stuff, what the heck? slamming the dooor, calling me names, throwing the things and rake up my doings, what is that suppose to mean? I DID NOT EVEN HEAR, EVEN YOU HEARD THAT I SAID " IT DOES NOT RAIN "

what a great day. A VERY GREAT DAY INDEED, one by one make me so fucking mad -___________-

Like a pyramid eh eh eh!

2010-07-05T02:20:00.003+08:00

Happy youth day to all youths people :D seems like i'm still awake while everybody in the house is sleeping soundly for another day of work later on. i really hate this feeling when i had insomnia. i tried forcing myself to go to sleep, but mission failed. end up, continuously kept texting alun till he is awake and there he go again, back to his own world.

sadly, i'm depressed about........................ i won't be able to watch eclipse tomorrow/later because alun is sick. forget it, i should just watch it online then, since it's hard to find a perfect time to watch. haha.

i went out yesterday with abang and sis in law including little niece. we escort the bride n groom to Kampung Ubi CC. it was two thumbs up for everything, exclude the performance. haha, not as what we're expecting but oh well, can't say much. it's still the same couple, fyi. check it @ Berita Minggu, about Alfarahizah akhirnya jadi isteri orang. haha that it is!

did i mention that i saw Irwan and maybe Rasul i think? they changed a lot, really a lot. as what i expected. haha! so currently, i'm chatting with my cousin, we both got nothing to do & i'm working right now on my Baking life, heheheheeee! since i can't sleep, might as well earn some cash hor.

so bored, feel like killing myself.

on the sad note, i guess no point on contacting at my hp's number): it'll still be off until next month, sob!

before i start blabbering about it, i shall stop posting for now. Good morning earthlings!

2010-07-03T14:24:00.000+08:00

i feel like cutting my fringe, should i?

Rinduuuuu

2010-07-03T13:34:00.003+08:00

School started well for me. i didn't get enough sleep the night before(Sunday) cause i went out with Sis, Aunt and Mama. at night went to ECP with Sis and went back home by bus & the journey was freaking long, 1hr 45mins until Clementi AND it was damn cold. couldn't help it at that moment. reached clementi and took cab home.

School is very pressurizing for me but thankfully, i managed to cope well for now. i managed to finished up my homework, art task on time. i kept on counting till the day of the N level, haha. i can't wait to be over actually ! hehe :D Math is manageable, chemistry? no idea. N level oral for English starting this coming Tuesday, but for my class it'll be on 8-13 july. so for mine is 12 july. Alun is on 7th july, if i'm not wrong. wish you all the best :D same goes for the rest who are taking it :D

i stayed back most of the time for Art exclude Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. next week, i'll have to force myself to stayback in school for art most of the days.

last night, i had a nightmare. hmmm, its about.. My parents and i went to this particular bus stop cause Mama wanted to meet this Aunt, that Aunt lend Mama her jewellery for her to sell it. we were been spy by a particular man(which is Mama's old friend). he kept looking at us as if he's going for the jewellery. my parents and myself were scared, when we were about to walked off, suddenly the people at the bus stop(which is a lot of people) were running franticly. i suspect that man was after my parents so i told my parents to just board any bus and coincidentally, 962 bus arrived but it does not end at Woodland but it'll end at Far East plaza. we managed to get in and couldn't find that man. then i woke up by Mama's movement.

as soon i was awake, i checked on my hp, alun texted. he told me to aim my weight till 55kg, which is a no no for me. he said that because i told him i gain weight by 3kg. he said that they were stuck at outram or something and have no idea how to get home. end up, he took NR2 to his home and he complaint about his work. haha, poor boy.. kept saying he miss me.

so since Monday is a public holiday(eh?), i thought of staying home but forget it, i'm going to accompany alun to do his ezlink and off to watch Eclipse! wuhooooooooooo~ sadly, yesterday me and sis was about to watch Eclipse but i was not at home yet, so it might be tiring for me.

by the way, yesterday night, me and my family went to Aunt house for a dinner. Abang kept on saying this " Mama tolong jaga niisa malam ini, kita empat(sis in law, me, abang, sis) nak tengok wayang and karaoke " in his funny voice. of course he was kidding lah, cause tomorrow itself which is today, all of them will be working in the morning, unlike me. i'll still in my bed, sleeping soundly. haha.

i'll be going out soon to Alfarahizah's wedding. she's is my dad's brother ex wife's family. i've yet to take my shower yet, haha. tomorrow maybe also follow Abang and family to escort Alfarahizah & Firdaus(her husband).

Ohya! forgot to mention, to those who has my number, do not contact me at that number for that moment okay? anything contact through Alun and he will pass the message to me :D for the mean time only.

i'm turning sixteen! but i guess it'll just be another day in my life. nothing special to celebrate about because i'll be busy doing my preparation for the exam. haha, i don't mind either :D i'll for sure understand my family if they don't get to celebrate it :D

hmmm i guess that's all for now. Bye!

By the way, FarahWun happy 1st Anniversary ! :D

Smile in my sleep.

2010-06-24T23:33:00.004+08:00

Uhm yeah. losing all the strength that i have. feeling useless at the same time. i shouldn't have took that step. it's just useless. in the end, i'm the one who get hit back. i did not stand up for myself. forget it, as long they are happy, i will share my joy with them too :D

sometimes we have to realize that we have to sacrifice for our loved ones, no matter how hurtful it is. no pain no gain right? put aside about my feelings, lets think of the lovely soul(:

those tears were the words that said " i failed, i'm sorry " so dramatic eh? haha. nobody will get the idea of what i'm trying to say :D

PLEASE LOOOOOOK DOWN!

now say , what the hell what the hell what the hell what the hell!! haha, i don't wanna go to school. i feel the pressure now as it coming near to the reopen. my hair colour is fading, homework TOTALLY UNDONE.

i wasted my thursday to fetch Alun at Outram cause he had an interview just now. he was with his cousin, Nurra. Alun just can't stop disturb us cause both of us are shy to each other. i find it cute for Nurra and Alun to argue over the mrt line, hahahaha. then we separated, decided to go to Plaza Singapura as its been a long time since i went there. ate our late lunch and i brought along my laptop for him to service. wasted at Mac for two hour or so. went off, walked to Somerset. someone being so jakun infront of the Istana Park. haha. went into several shopping centre, survey tops/shirt and shoes. he already planned for his future school, haha. he seems to be so excited ! :D i got tired, we went home after those walk. took the red line instead of green line, wasting time.

and now, where is him? i'm worried. by the way, i watched Gelora di Hati Sara just now, i find it very sweet, sad, touching, realistic. hehe, abang was already complaining about the storyline. haha! the waka waka song by Shakira is stucked to my head and i find it very irritating. huhu.

i'm so touched to my dearest cousin, haha. she automatically wished me happy 14th monthsary when the clock tick 12am sharp despite in her situation, lol. terharu i! haha.

as those tree need roots to grow and that is also where love need someone to make it happen. Alun, te amo! heh ^^

i'm out :D Goodnight & TGIF.

Stuck in the moment

2010-06-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

Happy Father's Day to all father and especially to OUR papa :D we didn't celebrate it, but right after the Pertapis Charity Walkathon event at Kovan Hub last Sunday, me and Sis went to City hall to get a wallet for papa. it's expensive and sis just bought it cause that's the cheapest in that shop. went in to 4skin, those top were gorgeous! we thought of going Cinenleisure to play guitar hero but it's 8+ per hour, so i decided to karaoke. not so fun without Dirah. haha! wish you were there lah babe. went home right after that, wash up and i was already in Sis's bed. couldn't help with the tired anymore.

went out early in the morning on Monday, mama wanted to go to BBDC. saw Au, waited there till 1130am and the result was satisfied. he got his license already :D a best friend of mine just ruined my morning and made me feel uneasy at BBDC, irritating. so told mama i wanted to go home early. cabbed home. since i've nothing to do, i went out to meet Alun since i told Fyee that i can't make it on that day. tsk! shouldn't have cancelled. went home by 8pm.

i'm still sleepy eventhough i had my nap time in the evening. i thought of doing my homework, but tsk. wasted! too sleepy. can't help it. gonna meet Dirah tomorrow! nak bawa comel tak? HAHAHA!

less than a week, school's gonna reopen. which means, we'll be busy preparing. mindset fully on the big examination, mira. only for this holiday, i felt relax cause i just couldn't be bothered eventhough the N's is coming near. i shall stop talking and wake up to start on it.

by the way, Farah told me that i've grown in my height. haha, but still i guess there's a little improvement. weird thing is, i did not exercise during this holiday. hmmm? i guess i've gained weight. OH! Au also told me that i've grown. maybe ? hmmm. alright i shall check on my other account now.

i guess that's it for now. Goodnight!

Shooting stars

2010-06-19T00:55:00.001+08:00

Miss you.

i don't feel like sleeping. so i changed my blogskin, much better i think? i feel like eating bread, but there's no bread. i paused my Last Song online movie just to update, haha. i'm sending a lot of pictures to Dirah. mainly me, sis and her pictures. quite funny and miss those time :D can't wait to meet them tomorrow afternoon :D fo'sure we will snap pictures.

i read a few of the blogs. oh, lonely? but i think you were perfectly fine? you were consistantly talking. forget it, i won't drag it.

i'll start my homework next week. haha, got timing eh. but if i were to touch on my art preparation, OH MY GOSH! panic habis habisan nye!

okay, gotta put some songs at my blog now. bye!

Everything i did for you, you don't want no more.

2010-06-17T23:35:00.004+08:00

I'm back from the 3D2N recreational cca camp. the place was alright, not as bad as i expected. everything went smooth sailing. the facilities was perfect exclude the food. haha. i did enjoyed during the camp eventhough i wasn't that hyper at certain time. mostly, i just kept quiet and i really look pale without any powder on,lol.

being alone at the 2nd night and been ignored quite badly. what should i say more? nothing, just gave a blank and pathetic look to them. whatever, merak kayangan still rocks(:

my mind is in a mess. i couldn't think properly. i went out with mama the whole day today, a lot of stuff we talk about. from the past to the future. about babys-teenagers-adults stuff. there's something just bothering my family. that thing is just easy to disappear in a second. like mama said, it's like a water. sigh, i can't help much. on the brighter note, i just hope i'll enjoy my weekend this week. lets just hope and see.

sadly, you went off just like that. isn't wrong for me to be mad about it? it's quite reasonable. nobody is giving me the attention that i wanted, so why can't it be you that i wanted to rely on? yet instead, you giving me the cold shoulder and scold me. you and your hobby has just distanced us apart. tsk, i'm not heartless to stop you from it right.

or perhaps, you're still clueless what happened to me recently. nobody realize, you know.

maybe, i should just stay in the dark. hahahaha, macam emo -____-" oh pleaseeee mira, you should start doing your assignment rather than thinking those unnecessary stuff which is not worth it.

i'm still tired due to the amazing race @ changi i had during the camp. but i'll be sleeping late today cause currently watching Greece vs Nigeria. heh, Goodnight!

dearest !

2010-06-13T15:33:00.002+08:00

Rainy Sunday! i love it. staying home with this kind of weather make me feel more relax. i had a leisure sleep today. i woke up twice, 12pm due to my dry cough and lastly 2pm due to my dry cough also.

i've yet pack my stuff for camp tomorrow when Sirah is already bugging me to pack and pack. some of the stuff, i don't have. how? ): i miss hairul. haha. he is busy uploading the pictures in facebook.

i'm updating now cause i feel like blogging. haha. today, i'm having class pit but i did not go for it cause i'm tired and more over, tomorrow i'll be having camp. by the way, i'm having muscle cramp at my arm-shoulder area. i think it's because of the luge's handle. haha. yes we went to Resort world for sight-seeing and also went to Siloso to take the skyride and luge, we took it twice. the route was fun and it's much more easier than go-kart. hehe.

i think by end of wednesday, my skin will turn much darker than now. yesterday's weather was @!$@#%#@!@$ !!!!!! freaking hot. i just hope tomorrow's weather will be just nice. hehe.

alright, i shall do my packing now and karaoke later on! bye!

AWAY UNTIL I DON'T KNOW WHEN, MISS ME!

Lose control

2010-06-12T23:18:00.006+08:00

Dulu waktu umurku belasan tahun sudah
Aku pernah ingin merasakan apa itu cinta
Tapi ku tak tahu bagaimana 'tuk memulai
Kadang ada perasaan yang tak bisa kujelaskan

Holiday just started yesterday for me. i've been busy with my art canvas and attending malay dance(for fun) but my weekends for last week was aweeeesome! my one week extended school was plain boring, i skipped a day from school because there was a test on history. i'm totally exhausted from waking up early in the morning just to go to school. i'll be attending camp on monday. shitz! not looking forward cause mama said it's haunted ):

so as i've stated earlier. last week's weekend was awesome right? yes it is, i went to beach road with sis and dirah then we went for karaoke at cash studio @ somerset. the cost was reasonable eventhough we extended an hour there. thanks sis! we record a lot of video of the songs we sang and WE wont upload all. haha, memalukan aja! pictures will be at facebook.

OH!something has just kept on lingering on my mind. lately, we began to trust each other even more.(but all this while, we trust also, hehe.) whatever mistakes we did, we will just let it slip through our fingers. we don't hold grudges towards each other eventhough he still does. haha. yes, i betrayed him. but not as bad as what OTHER girls has done towards their loved ones. my mistakes has been corrected. people said, history may repeat itself. but it won't be repeated if we ourself know the do's and dont's.

by the way, a particular lady just approached me to seek for help. guess what she said to me? my boyfriend kept blaming me for everything and it's not easy for him to give in and forget what happened eventhough i'm innocent. wait, i've read the messages that the boyfriend send it to her, sungguh menyakitkan hati! you're accusing, blaming, humiliating your own girlfriend, mind you. " i love you " does not mean all, you have to express it all to her. she is sacrificing her happiness just for you. bengap betul!

but girl you still have long way to go :D

like i said, we have our own flaws. who says it is impossible for us to put aside our flaws? most of us can, why not me huh? he made me proud yesterday. i'm so touched by him. awwwww! told him about my precious people, the situation and etc while having dinner yesterday. he kept quiet and looked me in the eye, my tears nearly roll down. i controlled it. he said he pity me and ask about the condition here. i felt ease after telling him everything. at least there's someone to listen to my sorrow and even answer it.

the he is not other than hairul :D

he still entertain me despite my mood yesterday. actually i was fed up because we wanted to watch Karate Kid yesterday, i called dirah for help to check out the timing, vivo and plaza sing timing is too late since he has plans with his friends. we went to cineleisure cause there's a nice timing, but damn. when we got there, it was totally sold out. ape lagi, mengamok lah mira. haha, i put a long gloomy face. disappointed ok! -____-" so ya we got no plans after that and nearly argue just cause we couldn't make up our mind to have our dinner. haha, end up walk one round at wheelock and ion and off to far east. at easteler restaurant, on the way there saw kari, fiska and fahmy.

woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! i must be bored now. hahaaa. kept on typing shitz over here. i can't wait for N'level to be over cause i'll be enjoying non stop, haha. i mean i'll be out from Singapore for awhile, hehe. sis in law and myself planned to go Bali cause the seafood and the beach, wah marvellous beb! the things over there is quite affordable too and reasonable price. but i'll still wanting to go Paris/France. haha! or even better, travel around the world :D

ok laugh at me. laugh at me sis, dirah. hahaha! i've got lots to say cause i miss blogging. it'll be once in a lifetime i'll update this long. haha. next week i'll be attending wedding ceremony at Sembawang CC. hehe, meeting these two ladies here again :D the next day will be having Pertapis Walkathon. my holiday is so plain boring. someone, just enlighten it please.

but i'm glad i had fun yesterday :D it was randomly planned at the end but it was worth going out on the saturday rather than staying home. AND i think i did a mistake in the beginning. i'll bare in mind that do not be over confident about an outing/event that everything going to be fun/exciting/alright/perfect. nothing is perfect. stupid me!

i just remember that yesterday was mama and papa's 32nd Anniversary! hehe, they were blushed when all of us wished them. whatever happens, i'm still grateful for having them with me now :D sheeesh, fifa world cup started yesterday. when i was on the way home at Jurong Point, a crow in front of the mrt control station, was yelling due to the goals just now eventhough i was listening to my songs. fyi, mostly are the bangladeshi. hehe.

i kept coughing for the past four days. dry cough(batuk kering), something like that lah. haha. irritating you know. sheeesh.

usually when i update, i have problem of ending my post and starting my post. so what should i do? maybe i'm turning in soon. i've been waking up early for the past 13 days. haha Goodnight!

Hairul take care when you're there @ Trekking. tell me when you're free, i want Karate Kid badly -___-"

change me

2010-05-31T19:09:00.003+08:00

i kept wondering, why can't you stop bugging me about all this. you're pressuring me when there's much more better things to stress about. schools tomorrow and i've not even revise for my mock test or even complete my art layout. there's so many work i must do, but i choose to blog.

i spend my public holiday and saturday with family. went to jurong point with both brothers, sis in law and niece. had dinner outside. parents couldn't tag along. saturday was supposedly to attend religious speech, but had family dinner since everyone is free on that night. went to chua chu kang, Rasa istimewa restaurant. not much appetizer/dessert, dishes.

my sunday was spend with alun. went out to bought my shoe and his shirts. went to town first and had our lunch together then we're off to peninsula, he thought that there's more choices there but sadly, there wasn't any of his liking. btw, he did not smoke for a day, luckily he didn't faint(: thought of buying his cigg beside peninsula, but there's watcher around. so took cab bugis to find our stuff and gladly, i've found mine. i had difficulty choosing them, i still prefer the hotpink and black. alun thought of catching a movie since we still have lots of time, so watched shrek 3 at cineleisure, he kept on talking about the movie until we bought the ticket. while waiting for the time, bought some beads bangle for both of us. btw the movie was two thumbs up ! we thought of going home after that, cause both of us felt sleepy, but since alun still hasn't got his stuff, we passed by new look. went in, we both got ourself white clothing.

we quarrelled yesterday. same topic. tsk!

for once, hina sangat ke bohongan aku ni? till now you're living my days with tons of question. so pressurizing.

hmm, alright i'm off dudettes!

Happy advanced birthday to Nurra & Kak Yuhaniz! :D

Gain what it lost

2010-05-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

Ya Allah, hanya kaulah yang tahu betapa sakitnya dan perit hatiku ini. betapa keras hatinya untuk memulih semula. hanya kaulah yang tahu betapa murninya hajatku ini untuk disampaikannya.hanya kau sahajalah yang tahu situasiku yang sungguh merumitkan.

mira redha apa akan berlaku. mira akan tawakal sahaja walaupun sakit hatinya untuk menempuhnya. hati mira asyik menangis tiada henti, muka mira muram dan tidak bermaya. mira sudah cuba sedaya upaya untuk menyampaikan pesanan mira, tetapi gagal. apa lagi kamu mahu? aku letih menanggungnya untuk merawat hati kau yang luka itu. tetapi kau seperti tidak peduli akan kesudahannya nanti. kau pentingkan diri sendiri. adakah itu namakan pengorbanan? tidak.

mira seperti ingin melarikan diri dari kenyataan. melarikan tanggungjawab mira dalam dunia ini. hai.. susah lah macam gini. hate me for all you want but please don't drag another person into the matter.

Let her go

2010-05-28T01:32:00.003+08:00

Dear blogger,
i'll be back soon with a really proper post :D maybe tomorrow?

i do what i wanna do. i react how i wanna react. i follow my own ways. i gossip the latest stuff. so mind your own business. not interested with me, then i guess you just continue with your fab life. i don't need that look. i don't need anyone to be the third party.

MYOB :D thank you.

i love hairul! :D

2010-05-19T22:05:00.003+08:00

the person thats having my heart is in pain and suffering alone there. i'm the worst girlfriend, the girl that can't stood by him just to accompany him. a girl who let him suffered alone and staying alone. i felt bad, really bad): how i wish, i can escape from here just to check whether you're okay.

OK I WAS BEEN FOOLED ABOUT THIS.

i read my girlfriend's post. somehow, i agreed with her. it's because i'm in that situation too. i was just trying to be friend but end up, things didn't happen as what i expected. so i had to just go with the flow which means i've been lying to myself and others. it's all true girlfriend because i thought i'm the only one who has such behaviour.

eversince last week, i've been having headaches every single day. i always took panadol for my cure it, but it's getting worst day by day even now. i'm scared..... umm, nevermind.

Mad world

2010-05-19T20:30:00.004+08:00

i'm not looking forward to school now. i don't wish to face everything that is happening in school. i would love to stay in my home. safe and secure including peace. i don't wish to utter a word. i don't wish to lend a hand to help people that will risk myself, my precious people, my life. sometimes i wonder, if i'll be way off better without this happening. i hate those happening in school now.

am i invisible or what? " the best thing is just to trust yourself, no one else "

so i'll be giving school a miss tomorrow, mama asked me out to Bugis, but i think i will just stay home alone tomorrow.

netherless, i got all my exams script back. it was well done for some of them EXCLUDE MATH.

english : 60/100
math : 43/100

art : 69/100

mt : 70/100

Combined Humanities : 69/100

Combined Science : 66/100

the failing subject has made me motivated to work harder(:

i went to school and home with Yasmin today. we pour every single shits we had towards each other. i seems to be feeling much better but the inner heart, made us feeling down. i've tons of things in mind.

are you trying to get away from my life? oh no, i've just got some news. good news perhaps? do you wanna know?
why things goes this way when i'm just trying to help, but i'm the one who to be blame most.
i did my part to him but it doesn't concern you. its between you and him. none of my concern.
equal? it is not even a fair one. i thought you're the best of mine but indeed, you're not.
" find your friends wisely. find the ones who can cry and laugh with you. not the ones who only will laugh together with you. "

mainly that is. studies? i won't update here. mama going to Batam this weekend with Mummy. so i'll be sleeping over at Mummy's house to accompany sis. maybe will be attending Pertapis meeting and still considering where to go after that, either go home or go out with " i dont know who? " any one wanna go out this weekend? i'm bored!

hehe, i felt happy to stay at home with families ): i'm out!

2010-05-16T01:52:00.004+08:00

i spend my time loving you, loving you to every minute try to walk away. every moment i woke up to i lay down, it you who got in my pray. i spend my time loving you, loving you 25 hours in my day.

every hour, every seconds, it changes the situation.
every hour, every seconds, it changes the emotions.
every hour, every seconds, it changes the mood.
every hour, every seconds, it changes the fact.

but the reality fact is the truth. not more than that is all i ever wanted.

no more messing things up cause i'm clearing everything now. straight and clear, no matter how bitter it is, i have to.

cousin, seems like we're in dilemma huh? i gotta get back to her cause i wanna crap with her ): bye!

HAIRUL WHERE ARE YOU? ): everybody is disappearing, leaving me all alone right now. leaving me to cry alone and hearing my sorrow alone.

see you in my sweet dreams.

2010-05-15T12:54:00.002+08:00

-i repeated the same mistake as before. now blame me for making you into this situation. hold on to it and we can go far as what we've dreamt :D

MARI KITA BER-HOORAY-HOORAY!
MYE is over BUUUUUT Prelim/ N level is not over yet. but for the meantime, we won't feel the pressure like last few weeks. hehe :D i'm looking forward to every single day after today :D going out with Dirah later, to survey something :D and will be going to Mosque at night with aunties, mama and Dirah.

i've been so weird nowadays. i'm letting things go easily. maybe cause i don't bother about it? cause it's a common thing? cause i don't expect such high hopes on it? cause i'm doing the same? i have no answer for those. all i can say is, its your life, you decide, not me.

currently watching cartoon at okto :D those cutie dinosaur. grrr! geram! oh by the way, i would like to wish Ahbon/Zul and Nabil a very advance 16th birthday! all the best in life :D

there's a lot of birthdays going on this month. for sure, i'm going to focus on only one :D you decide who is it okay. i'm going to get ready now, if not i'll be late to meet Dirah. bye!

Till my last breathe.

2010-05-08T15:06:00.003+08:00

i've been daydreaming every single day. i looked up on you and wish i could rewind the time when i started to messed things up. now, things are in mess, i need to fixed them. fixed them into a single piece again. like a puzzle. i screwed things up but its not the matter now, as long i've got you.

situation has changed.
into a calm and soothing atmosphere.
i'm loving it :D

remember, old friends are still the best eventhough you're trying to adapt to a newer friends(:

i've been busy lately. busy studying for the exams. i feel the pressure, as though i'm seating for the big examination. i woke up at 2.30am just to do social studies revision by myself until the time for me to go to school, last friday. yeah, it's crazy. luckily, i didn't fall asleep while doing the paper. i hope my mother tongue composition is well written cause i've tried my best to insert a bombastic phrases and words to describe every single thing.

i've been neglecting my account for a long time. i feel like closing my blog, should i? (give suggestion please)

on a brighter note, tomorrow is Mother's Day. unfortunately, i'm having tuition. shall buy a small token of appreciation for mama. she has been giving me the fullest attention. when i'm going to school, revising hardly for the exams, did my assignments, came back from school, my money expenses. she never failed to give those attention despite her situation now. i can't give her anything except doing well in my studies. she is my inspiration, her endurance and strength for facing such circumstances in life.

touching ? haha, yeah.

another thing, Happy 16th Birthday Fitrah Kamilah ! i love you always, catch up soon! :D & Happy 17th Birthday Eika Atiieka ! i love you my senior :D have a blissful year ahead girls!

I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR 14th MAY! exam will be over :D looking forward for June Holiday. hopefully i will spend my holiday wisely.

Catch up.

2010-04-27T16:39:00.002+08:00

it could be you. the one who knew my liking of my songs genre.

yes its been a week i last update. sorry for the sudden lack of post. i was very busy with family for a week. last thursday i went to meet friends @ SSC and bought something @ Daiso and it was raining that time, so we trained off to Causeway. walk around, saw birthday boy, Abang Ayie and then went off to seat at Mac'D. chatted/muted & so on, sweet home.

friday. told Ayun before that i have a surprise for him but i purposely acted like i forgot or something(actually i just kept quiet). went home straight, he was not in the mood 'cause of blahblah(so manja!) reached home, packed my items all into the box cause on that time, those items will be brought back to Boonlay. i get ready and off to Ayun's house. i didn't say anything and i asked him " you want me to appear in your house now? i can do it :D" he said " i wish i want." then i text him to go out from his house, he was shocked. haha. last minute plan, he dragged his takraw's training to a later time, so we catch a Date Night movie. it was aweeeeesome! before that, ate lunch/dinner with him. off to Boonlay and off to Aunt house.

i tried to waited up till 12am on friday night, but before 15 minutes to 12am, i already dozed off. i was too tired i guess. i woke up at 5am unintentionally. read msg from Ayun and i send mine and off sleep again.

One Anniversary dear :D

woke up. decided on my outfit for the Volunteer's Appreciation Tea. get ready with Sis. at 12.30pm, we went out. met Kak Adlina. followed by the rest @ the Concorde Hotel. the event went smoothly :D eventhough i think not all of the youth turned up. i volunteer to help on the games which is deal or no deal. same goes for Kak Yuhaniz, Sis, Yuhazwan(sorry if i got your name wrongly) & Abg Zaki. yeah, very rare to find me on stage and laughing with the briefcase! after the event, went out with Abg Hassan, Abg Zaki, Abg Man, Sis, Abg Khai @ Somerset > Orchard. halfway @ Cineleisure, Acap(?) joined us. then when it was 7pm, Abg Man and Abg Zaki went off first. followed by me and Sis. trained to Boonlay, it was a long journey to Boonlay you know.

reached Boonlay and furnitures and items was already here. thought of unpack everything, but it was so pack. nevermind, forget it. my family went back to Aunt house cause we need some peace for a while. that's the moment where everything start to get things messy. complicated story though. i dozed off while texting Ayun again. haha.

woke up late. everyone in the house woke up late. Sis asked me out to catch a movie with her boyfriend. actually it was Kick Ass but i'm still 15. she laughed at me! tsk. so they planned, The Bounty Hunter. so went off to West Mall. Abg Hassan reached there at a later time and said, " ini lah, kalau umur belum cukup tak boleh tengok Kick Ass " -_______-" the movie was fun, more information : just watch it! had lunch. double cheeburger meal with cinnamon meltz. haha! melting smelting pe! did my homework there as there's two O'level graduate student. so went home after that.

went back home at Boonlay by 10pm. unpack everything, pack school stuff and sleep! had a hard time sleeping, cause i can't stop tearing up on that point of time.

Monday blue? not for me. i was excited, not sure why. school was okay. can be managed. the Assembly was fun! i kept on commenting and laughing. went home straight after had my lunch with Ayun and friends.

today, so not my day. i was too early in Sembawang, Ayun had a family matter to attend so he didn't went to school. waited for Farah and went to school. English period made me falls asleep. Art ? STREEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS. MYE paper was given, more explanation, more demands, more instructions. i can't wait to end this MYE and PRELIM. i went home straight after school.

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what will you do if you change your priority and that makes your friends to be the last priority BUT you are sad with the way you now? should you just go with the flow or try to make some changes to it? However, that's not the only thing. following to my instinct, you betray us? not jumping into conclusion yet.

Show me the way .

2010-04-21T22:59:00.004+08:00

i'm having backache now due to heavy bags. my classmate all were complaining that they are carrying such a heavy bag. poor friends ): the girls had a confession talk with Ms R about something after school. now we can move on with ease. " they are not gentleman so why would they be ashame with us? " i like! Napfa Test was today. i can say that i improved my shuttle run, sit and reach, pull ups. HAHA! sit ups and standing broadjump was devastating! but overall, i passed ! Ayun ran just now, okay i melted ^^ hehe!

i'm glad my math test was manageable. luckily the paper was easy peasy eh?(hopefully it is) physic was fun! tomorrow will be having two test, oh goodluck! D:

maybe my questions was too sarcastic that it hurt someone? does it? hmm, i've got no idea. i felt better once i pour EVERYTHING to Ayun eventhough all he did was ''Listen'' ? haha. i went home once i had my dinner with friends. i was prespiring profusely when i got home. -____-" on the phone with Ayun while revising and he said i was irritating and loud by reading/singing.

oh talking about singing. MTV had OK Karaoke just now, so i sang alone with it. haha, random.

before i end this, i need to get things straight to this few girls. if you think we have to show the respect, we did by trusting you to manage well the group. but it seems like, you girls failed to do so. so you want our respect? you better earn it yourself not by gaining it with '' hello mira! '' that's worthless. what does it say about you girls? disgraceful you know.

okay, yup i'm done. hehe. bye!

Happy 19th Birthday Kak Aidillah :D ! rindu pipi liquid ^^
Happy advanced (in 30 minutes) 18th Abang Ayie! rest well, lead a blissful life and stay cheerful! seeya this saturday :D

My ownself.

2010-04-20T18:52:00.004+08:00

i'll live to the fullest once the exams are over, going for my dream. without small steps, we won't succeed.

i need an inspiration for my next developing layout. i missed today's art class. they learned about technique of impasto. i research on that skill and it is useful for my painting technique. damn, i missed the important and useful lesson of it. i hardly absorb math's topic. it's confusing. i need sis ): i don't wish to disgrace myself and let everyone laugh at me.

our time is short. every single second counts. i'm having a rough week now. i really do, i'm running out of time. i have two test coming up and one design submission for the class. my assignment, house-packing, revision is NOT counted at all. so tell me now, how can i put all this in a nice and sweet schedule?

i don't wish to think of anything right now. and i have my priority, family and studies.

i have to get back to the right track now. bye!
ily hairul!

class, give me some ideas please ):

cry

2010-04-19T21:58:00.004+08:00

we'll get mad when something bad happened. &so, the girls was a little bit mad just now. yes i know it wasn't a right thing to do. but at least if you want to be integrity, follow on your own path ok. we won't disturb. it's already kind enough, she helped to reduce it eventhough it wasn't right. like i said, you can continue to follow on your own path. decision is yours.

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i've been spending a leisure time with Ayun this few days. there's hiccups in between but it pulls us back even stronger. yes, he is irritating but i'm accepting it :D he's down with fever, get well soon deaaaar!

i hate today. my handphone was flat for the whole day till i came back from school. i had my chemistry test result and it was disappointing eventhough i didn't show it. i felt nauseous and almost vomit right after my run cause i had lack of sleep hours for the past 6 days. headaches cause the weather was hot. i couldn't catch up with math current chapter. BUT THANKFULLY, mother tongue was relaxing. did our own reading. assembly, BOW-RING -___-"

my stomach was grumbling throughout the assembly so decided to have lunch with Ayun and Salih. saw Sirah and Fadzil, asked them to joined and followed by Fariz and Zul. after eating, played tap tap denomination and hockey at Sirah's ipod. as per normal, i'm the one who gets excited with the game with those vulgar words -___-"

i'm not looking forward to any days of school for this week. i'm not sure. will be having Napfa Test on wednesday after school. yeay! oh shit! i forgot to think of a design -_____-" damn it. why must it be me eh? is it because i always took the initiative to make the first move?

DISADVANTAGE POINT MIRA. tsk!

on a brighter note, my little niece knows how to walk already. weeeeehoooo! aku suka :D hehe, okay i'm still sleepy now :D goodnight!

love is dating

2010-04-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

I GOT LOTS OF THING TO POST ABOUT :D proper update soon. currently busy with packing stuff, can't wait! :D mye coming soon which means in 6 weeks time it'll be holiday! going to prepare myself for the big examination & at the same time shopping with Ayun! i forgot what to say actually xD anyway, i got a job offer for photo editting. sounds easy but i'm scared their expectation of the quality will be high. napfa test will be on wednesday and my advance mother tongue paper will be on this friday. english oral next wednesday. & my mother tongue oral's result, SUCKS!

lastly, i sawwwwwwwwwwwwwww KARTINAAAAA DEWI AGAIN :D we hugged!

every beginning

2010-04-12T14:50:00.003+08:00

my weekend was been used for helping abang's new house. sounds boring ? not really, cause i had so much fun laughing and hearing stories from aunt and parents and sis. they talked so much.

saturday went out and met Sirah, dad last minute said he don't want to accompany me. tsk, fickle minded. paid the bills and went to have McCafe date with Sirah. while drinking, we played tap tap game and 'twister hand' game. lol, concentrating habis! then walked around causeway and it was 6pm by then. separated and trained to Boonlay. i didn't know that the bus interchange has moved inside the JP2, tsk! waste my strength only. then took bus and reached abang's new house.

i rest for quite a long time. then at night decided to help to put cement/plaster for the tiles gap. i did it for three room and it's quite tiring. every tiles line. then it was 3am by then, decided to take a nap but in the end i slept till the morning. woke up at the same timing with sis. little miss busybody began. went down to buy few things and get bath all. had breakfast and continued with the work. this time it's at the hall. it took one whole day to finish it. imagine, 5 peoples doing on it within 6 hours.lol, but halfway me,Dirah and Sis in law went out to Gek Poh SC to buy something and came back to finish up the work.

we put it an end by 630pm. dinner together and packed up and went to pick up little niece(but went up for awhile since sis in law parents invite us for a dinner), send Dirah's family and off home.

did a few house chores and onlined. i gotta admit this, can't believe i signed up for HABBO AGAIN. nyahaha! but luckily, i'm not so addicted to it.lol. offlined and dozed off straight xD

so what time is it now? 3.01pm so that means i'm home when everybody is in school. give school a missed cause i felt so lethargic. Ayun give the same reason to me that he is tired to go to school today. busybody! woke up late and little niece, Sis in law and mama kept waking me up. hehe. while everbody was sleeping just now(except mama cause she went out), i removed my light pink nail polish and did my nail with hotpink nail polish. it's so sweet! i love it :D

i seriously can't wait for Prelim to be over when it has not started yet -___" cause i can't wait for June. got lots of plan with Ayun :D i want surprised k! and obviously, i wanna go out with my girls too :D and followed by few others friend. but priority, my school preparation i won't neglect on it.

12 more days! hehe but sadly can't celebrate):

okay i'm out! i think i wanna go to Mc Cafe later, cause i'm craving for caramel frappe ah! bye!

saddest lie.

2010-04-10T12:14:00.003+08:00

& its true. the problem that i'm facing seriously made my life different. i'm the cause for it. blame me, yes my mistake. but with ego, i failed to admit it to you. so, i'm just keeping everything to myself.

a lot of last minute plans yesterday and today as well. yesterday went to abang's new house & the family clean up the mess. went home around 10pm. mama said that we'll be sleeping over at abang's new house today as they need to complete the paint today. i thought of going out today but it seems like, too many last minute plans. i hate it. Ayun is sleeping i guess, thought of not texting him that i'm awake. afraid of disturbing his sleep(: so i have to go to the courts at causeway to pay some bills.

so i thought of meeting Sirah after that since i have lots of time to waste. actually, NOT. cause i don't know what to do at abang's new house later if everyone is busy with their task. urgh still can't decide yet. tsk! oh i forgot that, au want to buy for me a new shoe :D & maybe if he's free next week, he going to bring me along to catch a movie but at the same time, sis also told me that once she got her pay, she'll treat me a bit. soooooo, when can i start work? loll(not going to be happen for this year)

alright, i need to send the things down for abang's new house first. then i'll be getting ready to go out :D bye!

tak seribu daya, tak seribu dalih.

2010-04-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

Hi! Actually i'm lazy to blog for this few days cause i'm tired and all but for the sake of my big big brother's birthday tomorrow, i'll just spend half of my time do post it. sorry the picture made him look so old but actually he is young AT HEART xD

so, Happy 27th Birthday Abang boy! :D may you live happily with your family around you & murah rezeki. i know when you said " tak ada mood nak celebrate. nak celebrate, sepuluh sen je abang ada. " yeah, eventhough at my age, i should not know anything about housing stuff, but now i know everything. you've been going through such a hard life for the past years. but no matter what, there's mama papa & your siblings to support you :D be strong when i know you are weak like me xD ok i'm kidding, he is a strong man & with has done a great responsibility in my family and his's to make things work out. we used to be close before you married :D used to be my favourite big brother & up till now, he is still my favourite big brother. never failed to try to make things better if we have some misunderstanding. &oh, his jokes. hahahaa so irritating & we still do fight, okay the real fight, not verbally okay. nyaahah, but those are when we are joking with each other. mira sayang abang! selamat hari jadi !

sometimes i wonder..

sometimes they always seen my bad side when they didn't know that i've change. changed for a better person. i used to be the very rebellious girl at home, but now i'm not. i tried to fit myself in this position. i tried myself to fit myself in this kind of situation. i tried to understand their problem no matter what it takes. no matter how much it kills me deep down inside. cause i know, they will need me in the future and i need them right now. but still, i've changed for the best. no more the ''highlight zaman perangai girl. '' or '' cari perangai girl '' anymore. sad to say this, whenever i tried to asked him about his whereabout, he questioned me back in a suspicious way. a very mysterious one. he thought i'm still bad. yes, i mixed with all genders, but i'm not neglecting my priority. which is my studies.

sometimes, we have to give and take for all the things that's happening around us.

i'm out guys! bye :D

reality sucks, judgement sucks too!

2010-04-06T14:56:00.003+08:00

i end my school day with a bad temper. tsk! i'm actually stress with the Art. i had to do another layout because the initial layout that i have been doing, teacher said it was only an idea and she gave an inspiration to do the final layout. so YA! i have to do it again and have to practice 3D type which is i'm not good at. punyalah bingit! not mad at her actually, just just ... hais i dont know.

then school end, somebody just went with his friends and left me all alone? if there's someone to accompany me, its okay to go to your friend's area. but i'm alone and you know how shy i am towards your friends. then the weather! alamak, panas terik! adding on je seh! so what else? i gave that irritated look with those rolls eye. then adding more to the situation, someone said '' i don't wanna lose you '' if you're not telling me such impression you're giving to me, of course i won't be this fucking annoyed! and i did not even thought of it. urgh! ohya, while on the phone, a lady just stood in the middle of the pathway and how am i suppose to walk? so i said '' bodoh lah! '' . so get the story?

and another thing, i can't take it with girls talking like they are somekind of biggy in this town. macam sial je. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

CB! -_____________-"
and ya lastly,

Please mind your own business. we appreciate if you're concern about us. but we want this to be between us only :D oh, WE ARE BACK BABY!

i apologize if this post kinda harsh. heh.

2010-04-05T18:18:00.002+08:00

In the sunlight, flowers abloom.

Each bloom represent the hope of my past lives.

As you draw nearer, those shivering leaves are the fervor of my anticipation,

and as you finally walk passed disregardingly,

behind you there falls.

oh, those aren't flower petals but it is my withered heart.

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i know i'm just wasting my precious time by watching online movies but it's so addictive. it gives sweet quotation about life, love, happiness, sadness and more. i'm so keen to know more about that movie. hehe :D

my sunshine has gone, how?

2010-04-04T20:33:00.003+08:00

i realized something has gone wrong but i have no idea whats the problem is. is it with me? her? him? us? them? or who? i'm clueless. all i can do is just go with the flow, go which is right and ignore which is wrong. i'm tired living in this world with questions around me. every night, day and time.

Dirah faced the similar situation as me. surprisingly, we have the same attitude. we are weak. we are clueless. we don't know why we are behaving this way. we don't know which is our choices. we just want to free from those matter. right cousin? hahaha!

so people might be wondering now, what kind of situation we are facing? it's not a common situation. so yeah, its between both of us. yes, me and Dirah only.

yesterday went out with mama to Aunt house. while on the way and while i was getting ready, mama kept motivating me to keep pursuing my dreams and don't give up. right now, parents are depending with 2nd brother and who knows next, they will be depending on me? i have to get prepare. she is not presurring me but just to ensure me on the right path. soon after my big examination is over, i won't be working cause 2nd brother don't allow me to. sigh, i can't say more cause i have no points to do so. the most important thing is, i have to go for my dreams.

geeeeee :D forget about that. i woke up late today cause it was raining in the morning and i decided to sleep back :D woke up and wash up and did my art all the way till evening. so yes, i did not bath till 7pm! hahahaa, dah macam Abirah pula xD oppps sorry Birah. hehe! wait, i bathed already okay now! felt so cold now, anytime can doze off.

another week of normal school tomorrow! gah! going home after school as usual :D but will be having Sport Day on Friday at Woodlands Stadium. Shikin/Nana datang tau!

right now i'm having blister on my both leg. it kept bleeding since yesterday, i had to put some oilment cause the pain like @#%@#@@ until now! currently watching Ahmad Albab, so long never watch this. heheee. okay i'm off ! bye!

im a fool.

2010-04-02T22:32:00.004+08:00

I learnt a lot from my mistake. A lot but i just don't know how to make it into a good end. I can never do as what it is expected. I'm no where perfect eversince i was born and never ever did a good job for myself and others. how dumb i can be. how i wish i never be in this state.

so i did not get to set my hair properly & that's the reason why my hair looks so wavy & euw. met the girls 2pm and off to Shikin's condominium. went to the karaoke lounge & waited till we are invited to go to the hall for the birthday party. it was 3pm by then. Shikin looked so gorgeous & complaining that's she is stress. awwww, pity her ): ate there & it was DELICIOUS HABIS! hahahaaha right fyee? by then it was 4pm or so, so me & Farah has to go.what a waste! we just missed the fun & i wanna stay long at Shikin's birthday party but the rest kept texting me here & there. hugged & said sorry to Shikin & off to bus stop, bused off to Causeway & wait for the rest to arrive.

off to Nana's house. i didn't eat there cause i was full. played the game since there's only a few of people there. then went off from Nana's house cause they want to. so since Farahwun has plans, we decide to go to Town to waste our time. Sirah agreed cause she's loaded. lol! went off to Ion then off to Wheelock and Far east, did window shopping there and found nice outfit so i decided to withdraw my money and bought it. tsk! wasting uh mira! then it was Sirah's turn, after a lot of rounds in the mall, she only decided to buy a beg -____-'' lol! and we bought the same bangle :D hehe , bought Iced Milo and Ching Chow and off home.

Sirah went to Harbourfront to join her family. so in the train, we(find out who) talked a lot for the upcoming date. loooooooking forward to it!

i'm tired & hungry.

2010-04-02T01:48:00.001+08:00

me and my stupid ways. i shouldn't have. i shouldn't have. Mira in a year, how many times you've just chose the wrong option? huhu, Good morning & Night.

Happy 16th Birthday ShikinZ !

i'm not her .

2010-04-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

In fairytale, their life will end in a positive way. & now my life is halfway there, almost to end with a good way/thing. there's alot of misunderstanding and unfaithful person around this world and so i've not be very careful lately and someone is just betraying me. that person two-faced with me. oh how sweet that pain is.

i'm not going to brag about this cause i know it'll just ruin my mood for now.

before i go any further. to the people i'm referring , i'm very sorry for this lately behaviour. i have been so stupid and i've been forgetting you. i realize & hope you read this ): i miss us! ini lah akibatnya kalau orang sudah bermain dengan api. now i have to face the consequences.

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School was fine. managed to do those two test! i missed out one question for both test, cool. career package was boring. went home straight, get ready and off to meet the friends :D went to eat and bought presents for someone :D and then off to chill at somewhere in Causeway. something happened in between & i don't wish to say anything about it :D chit chat with them & talk alot, i laughed a lot but i talk less, like usual babe. hahaha! went off to Cotton On while Zee went home first since he wanna skate. then walked and story telling with Yasmin and off home.

so i'll be attending this gorgeous lady's birthday party @ her condominium.

Happy advanced 16th Birthday sweetheart, Ashikin Binte Zahari ! she has been a great girlfriend to me. she used to hugged me, kissed me, hold my hands, calm me down when i was in the verge of breaking down or i'm not in a good situation. she'll be there when i need her. but i'm happy that's she is leading a blissful life with her loved ones around her. eventhough we're not close ''a little'', but still we're close within our heart. may you be a succesful lady, study hard, do well in your Art & other subject, perservere in anything that you going to face in the future. Mira is always there for you when you need her okay! aku sayang kau bodoh! jumpa kau besok ya! muahmuah!

i'm outtttttt! chatting with Alun :D

Indecisive .

2010-03-30T18:50:00.003+08:00

Every girl knows a guy like this. He flirts with you, text you every night before bed and puts out the vibe that he's seriously interested in you. That is until he chats up another girl at a party, sends a three word reply to your Facebook message and acts like he doesn't want a girlfriend. But just as you're ready to give up on him, he makes some irresistibly sweet gesture that pulls you right back in. Now, it's time to figure out what's really going through his head because when you understand why his feelings seem so up and down, then you can decide whether it's time to cut the cord on his yo yo for good.

so who's stringing me along?

" the on-again off-again boyfriend '' (haha)
His deal : most of the time, he's an awesome boyfriend but your relationship is still filled with stupid fights that lead to angry ~~break-ups.~~ you always make up but the cycle starts over.

My move : you're drawn to the drama of fights and break-ups because it ignites a fire in your relationship which means the real fire is out. Next time, ~~break~~ for at least one month. This will give you the space to figure out if your heart is still in it.

i always love tuesday cause school end early. Art period was manageable & i'm in the process of developing into my final layout. i'll try out a few of it. too much distraction on the net till i stop revising and didn't start on my art. i find a little bit odd for me cause i went home straight and did my revision after i've rest for an hour. so ya, i did my revision and did my english cloze passage.

every part of the revision, i'll stop and daydream suddenly or even draw at my handbook. it feels kind of weird for me.

oh no, i'm not looking forward for tomorrow cause the books are too heavy to carry. sigh. currently i'm reading magazine and that's the reason the paragraph above sounds 'so not me'. haha, i lift those paragraph from the magazine and decided to post it here.

not to forget, Ms R gave an essay for us to read and the first sentence i saw was " A wound can be healed but a scar remains forever." i totally agree with that phrase & somehow i enjoy reading the essay.

wait, i can't continue updating anymore cause i need to do my work now! get going mira! bye! :D

inner soul .

2010-03-29T19:17:00.002+08:00

" i wish i am a baby that only knows how to play around. "
my only little niece :D she knows how to walk already!

i'm so bored now. will be watching tv later or sleeeeep! i thought of reading my malay novel after this to calm myself(: i've completed a few of my homework but leaving my art hanging cause i'm not in the right mode to continue my art eventhough there's art tomorrow. tomorrow after school, as per normal, going home straight :D

Mama told me to eat but i refused. hmm maybe later. i'm totally engaged on starting my revision. but of course not now, but tomorrow will be the start. ''rest well'' , yes of course i need it too. will be meeting friends on Thursday to chill together :D

yes Arina, my inner side is still strong. nothing gonna stop me from having fun fo'sure.

Monday blue with unexpected decisions to be heard. like i said earlier on, clueless. ''even the littlest thing could make the thing worst''

i may not show what i've got cause everything is just within myself.
like i said, '' i seldom show it. ''

on the brighter note, sis will be end her training as a civil servant in one month time! hopefully you pass your driving license as you know i know how it felts like to fall behind from the others. love you sis!

i promise, this is the last for today! bye :D

it lies in you !

2010-03-29T15:54:00.003+08:00

i will start this post with a good beginning okay?

So last Saturday i went out with Yasmin, Rina & Zee :D reached Somerset & off to skate park. saw a lot of familiar faces & too many names to mention. watch the dancework for awhile and all of us decided to have lunch at Mac'D. Edora & Emma joined us followed by their few friends. okay i admit, i was quiet & laughed at every bit they said. well that's me. nyahaha! then went to Paragon since Yasmin need to meet her sis, followed her then off to Taka, i wanted to go to this particular shop BUT i forgot where it is. should have contact Arina since she was there also that time. then off to Skate Park again since Zee needs to meet his friends, so we watched the dancework again. saw familiar faces again :D then we separate with Zee, so we girls decided to go to Raffles(Singapore River). walked to there and chilled awhile and while on the way saw a free admission to ACM, so we decided to go in since there's a showcase about Taj Mahal wealth & stuff. we got bored & off to Esplanade, Zee texted me asked where were we & said he will meet us at Esplanade. while waiting, listen to the performance & look at the sea/buildings. saw Syaida & her sister. me and Rina talked alot. Yasmin has her own reason, so we leave her alone(:

then someone said he'll be reaching within 10 minutes but end up, it was 30 minutes. haha, so went to rooftop and Zee brought along his two friends. he snap a lot of pictures for us & off to Marina Sq since we(the girls) are craving for an Ice cream, saw Aishah & her friend. chilled awhile and went home since Rina and Yasmin has to go home. i went to Aunt house alone.

went home with family at midnight and off to sleep. Sunday cancelled my appointment with the girls cause i have to go to Uncle's house. but when i reached Aunt house first(cause we have to report there first), Mama said we don't have to follow. & i was like, i should have go to Bishan Lib. since i was lazy to go out already, i rot at Sis's bed till 5pm and did my homework. unfortunately, i forgot to bring along my English TYS and it is just a waste of time! tsk! went home at night and hardly sleep till 2am.

i have tons of homework to do now but i waste half of the time to update cause i really need to let this out.

Let me telling you something. be whatever your decision is, i don't mind but this really disappoint me. i was speechless and clueless with your decision. there's no such thing ''treat this like a game''. you wanna treat this like a game? then i think, you got the wrong idea of 'RELATIONSHIP' okay. i am always free & have my whole time to be with you but this all depends on you. since you want this way, okay i'll play along with the game & thanks for this kind of treatment. i ''treasure'' a lot. so now, who's making the decision?

i'm out, bye.

more pictures @ Rina's fb : http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/photo.php?pid=3623802&id=649782479&fbid=381179462479

In my Head.

2010-03-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

i'm tired. tired of walking thats all :D but i still want to go out & have some relax moments with friends. it was awesome despite the humid weather & random plans. & my guess about 'those' girls are wrong. they are not arrogant but they are friendly, surprisingly. saw a lot of long-time-no-see friend from PTPS/WRPS & some schoolmate & cousins & i don't know who, lol.

i'm sleepy, very sleepy. need to wake up early tomorrow since going study with the girls :D tiring!

did i just made a mistake? what did i do..

money mo lova!

2010-03-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

Serious Shit, I Hate Today's & Tomorrow's Timetable! my bag is heavy as a rock! but i love school today no matter what happened and how i felt. i went home straight but before that bought Redondo again with another flavour. Ayun send me home :D saw Ashereen, wow grown up already seh!

i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee today! everything is back to normal. no more misunderstanding. currently chatting with my girls ! Fyee, Sirah, Yasmin,Fitrah and Farah(awhile ago) & texting :D will be going out on Saturday! still having problems with my clothing ):

Oh! i'll be busy starting on Friday afternoon :D Sunday morning will be having study groups with my classmate girls ! Farah, Arina, Nana. me love it!

a short one ok? bye!

2010-03-23T21:13:00.004+08:00

i'm so happy today cause today's school is short. i love the time table, English period very boring. then the weather made us so sleepy. Art was the relaxing one. i love it! was just painting for the past three period and i waste the time given lor! went home straight away :D

i just can't understand what's happening now. i'm just keeping myself calm for every single thing. nowadays i prefer to walk alone & i have no idea why. loner the best? that's what Yasmin told me before. i'm actually quite depressed with everything that's reacting to me, happening to me, becoming to me. i just need to stop all this but.. how?

& yes i'm irritated now. you're getting on my nerve, stop it please kid. tsk!

i'm going to stay back for my art tomorrow! bye ):

HAPPY ADVANCE 17TH BIRTHDAY DANISH !
HAPPY BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY AIDIL!

am i ?

2010-03-22T19:47:00.003+08:00

Hello its back to school AGAIN! :D

wait, i sound so excited and happy today. & of course its not because i love schooling! -__- but it's all because i have a positive mindset on eversince i went to bed yesterday. i woke up late & so is Ayun but in the end he has to accompany his mother. so went school alone and thought i was late, but on time & earlier.

so for the very first time, I DID SILENT READING & it works. it really does because i able to stay attentive till the end of the morning assembly and was laughing with Fieqah. the talk by the Principle is quite inspiring to me. it made some sense to me early in the morning. i'm much more motivated, K mira is being for real -___- Chemistry no news, did admission stuff and got lectured. English was okay but i began to dislike the classroom. it felt so cramp. & for P.E we had to run 4km around the Sembawang route and i think with the new lane we've run, it's much more longer than we thought! for fiveteen minutes, we did our Physical Training. it was halfway done because MOST of us feeling so restless and weak.

me and Arina skipped our recess. so Farah and Nana ate. assemble.. then Math, it was fun! did several survey and did some admission stuff and revise the old topic. M.t was much more relaxing! did reflection for the Term 1 and setting goals.

assembly was a short one(about the house meeting schedule) and then house meeting. planned to stay for cheerleading but Eika and Wanee asked me to join in, so sorry Shikin): then the weather was not that good, so we called the activities a day. had cheer leading, it was fun! dumbo. so not supportive for the house kan Shikin!

Ayun fetched and bought REDONDO for the family & myself! and i'm home by 5pm :D

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it'll be once in a while that i'll update every detail of things about school since i'm free now. actually, not because i still need to do my art but i think i should just forget about it and relax since tomorrow there'll be four periods of art. hmmm & my homework is all done within fourty five minutes? include my art. tomorrow school ends early! me like it!

i feel so fresh after the night shower and eating my Redondo! Ayun, two more days ! :D i'm out, bye!

if you're the one ?

2010-03-20T20:14:00.002+08:00

i love the weather today till i overslept the time that i suppose to wake up. Mama shouted at me and scolded me for sleeping for a long hours. get ready and went to Mummy house. brought along my laptop and art stuff. i've been conquering half of the day here by doing art, chatting, videos and songs. Sis went out with her boyfriend so i'm alone for now. Ayun went for takraw meeting and i told him to text me later when i'm totally free from art.

so all drawings are not with quality. boohoo! gotta edit it tomorrow. my dear schoolmates, timetable for term 2 is out! and i hate the timetable, P.E ON EVERY MONDAY? what?! not again. oh saying about school, i'm not ready yet cause i've not alter my skirt to its actual length yet! Monday is grooming check. hmm i think i'll just wear my skirt at my hips? since i totally forgot to tell mama about my skirt. goodluck mira!

life? life has been moving very smoothly. eventhough i don't love it but somehow i'm glad everything is alright. my bestfriend is being sucha bitch which cause me to have a very bad day just cause of my bestfriend. great eh! eventhough having some difficulties in the family, financial and stuff but i'm still leading a happy life with my loved ones beside me :D

i hope once school start, i'll have a positive mind on and getting ready for the examination. Bismillah..

i'm out!

when silence remains,

2010-03-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

'' jangan ada dusta di antara kita "

" i believe & i trust you "

once we destroy the trust between us, it'll be hard to gain back what we have lost.

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Alice in Wonderland 3D was okay. ate at Mac'D and waited till the movie start at 5.15pm after that had to go Sembawang back 'cause Ayun needs his cigg from Wan. pity him and ended our day at Town. met Sirah for awhile, took DVDs and off i went home.

oh no, school start in less than 2 days. i haven't start revising but assignments are done EXCEPT my ART. great, tomorrow maybe going to aunt house and do my art there. or should i just stay home movie marathon while doing my art? hmmm.

i'm hungry and currently watching 'Aku Juga Wanita' at Sensasi with family. that girl is so strong and brave to let whatever the husband wants as long as she is still with her husband. how faithful is the lady, i sympathize on her condition ): the lady now is under pressure.

i'm out.

vanished!

2010-03-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated 16th Birthday Lil Yaki ! :D hope you enjoy yesterday.

Happy 16th Birthday to Nurul Affiqah Binte Ariffin ! my one and only darling eversince we're primary school. hope you will enjoy your birthday tomorrow. remember sweetheart, i'll be always be there when you need me. ring me up & i'll pick it up okay. may all your wishes come true!

i stayed home for today. all i did was, cough, tv, rot, sleep, homework, using laptop BUT mostly on sleeping! i wasted 5 hours of sleeping. there goes my plan to complete my art today. haha. so that's the reason why i'm still updating now. i can't sleep. Alun is sleeping, his handphone can't get through. dah kenape dah dengan handphone dia! so all i can do is stay up till i'm sleepy by myself. i still can conquer my time by doing some revision too :D

tomorrow will be going to aunt house for awhile with cousin, Dirah. and before that maybe will drop by at Civic to meet my girls. hehe! atleast a short while will do. Friday day out with Alun! Sirah will tag along too :D

i'm out bebeh!

protection .

2010-03-16T22:03:00.002+08:00

NOW SOMEONE COOL ME DOWN.

I FEEL LIKE ENDING THIS LIFE OF MINE BUT I HAVE LOTS TO DO.

I'M BEING VERY PARANOID, VERY VERY VERY.

lets just hope things wont go as what my instinct says. it's too scary for me to face. i nearly lose control of myself.

i'm so dumb today, i answered the question without thinking what i've said. tak masuk akal lah mira! otak buntuuuuuuuuuuu!

i'll never be this way again. i hate myself for being this way.

something happened just a moment ago at home. i was quite shock to hear the news. tomorrow? i hope not.

so we crawl ,

2010-03-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

the sick person.

yesterday's pictures. more with Kak Dila. i woke up late today and i was down with fever again. high fever, 38.2degree. slept again till 2pm and bath, ate medicine and watched tv and slept again and watched tv till 1030pm. that was my routine for today. sounds boring but it's not that bad actually since i need to get a sufficient rest today.

tomorrow i'll be going out. miss ya! :D

my nickname is idiot.

2010-03-14T00:30:00.003+08:00

i'm so touched with every single words they said and summarize things up together. it made me flashback through the small and big times together with them. eika said , " since sec one seh! "

woke up early and off to Sirah's house. i felt different, like Sirah said, i helped her for buying her breakfast and went to her house and solve things calmly. so watch 'ToothFairy' and ate our breakfast till its time to go out. reached school, yadayadayidiyidiyadayada. got prepare for the performance. a lot of photos taken here and there, giggles and inside out jokes. we didn't know that our performance will be at 7pm. so meanwhile, some of us lay down on the table while waiting and zap! our performance.

backstage : read our prayers together and the sec 5s made their last speech, most of us tears down. awwwww! sungguh menyedihkan. then behind stage, i cried again while waiting. sheesh! i think the girls did a wonderful job :D it was flawless i guess. like Ms Rita said " you guys were professional " Ayun said " it was a superb performance! " mama said " lawa juga korang menari! " me and Wanee(i supposed) while were dancing, there's a slow version of the song, we nearly cried.

but overall, a great experience together. a great bonding together. a great last performance for most of us.

after that, wash up, cleaned up and off to meet Ayun awhile. Shadiq's sis was there :D stayed awhile and off home but on the way to my house, saw family went down the stairs and asked me to come along to Bedok, Grandpa house. so i did. sleep on the way there and home, reached home quickly get changed and sleep.

the moment i woke up, i was having fever. and it increased by 1degree when i reached aunt's house. the trip to Suntec for IT showcase so chaos and fun! with the civil servants xD sis, Kak Dilah and Abg Fadzly. a lot of things caught our attention, it was so tempting. but we keep hold to ourself, had dinner at Swensen. shopped awhile and home!

tomorrow will be staying home. Monday will be going to Fishing with the guys. but i'll be doing my work, duh! Ayun, quick i wanna watch Alice in Wonderland 3D. nyehehehs!

watch this! http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=355359363989&subj=615016599

we must learn.

2010-03-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

Atlast, new blogskin. i think it's the same as Sirah's website, but nevermind. i've change a little. school was great, a little bit of shits in school but it turned out to be okay because i just ignore it. went to Sunplaza with Ayun to get some stuff and met Sirah as i need the invitation card and home sweet home.

it's been a long time, we had our long loud laugh. so we did just now :D very disgusting ! lets just make things much more better in the future okay? through thick or thin.

i'm still on a good term with Sirah ;D despite the slight misunderstand/argument we had past few days but we manage to pull it through.

a lot of absentees in my class yesterday. everybody was on their holiday mood. haha! so as i've post in the previous post, i'll not waste my one week holiday break :D trying my ultimate best!

i felt better after pouring some of my sadness to one of my friend, like AT LAST? a peace conversation we had. Anyway, the clock strikes 12 midnight now, i've to do my asknlearn and go to sleep. can't wait to meet sis on saturday!

tomorrow will be going with Sirah to school. and my last performance, hopefully it will turn to be great! OF COURSE, THERE WILL BE PICTURES :D stay tune!

2010-03-10T19:47:00.003+08:00

so happy that i wish i could die.

this three days been busy with rehearsal, practices for this upcoming performance in school on friday. at the same time, i've been having moodswing on every morning. adding to it, i've been sick since last friday. running nose, slight cough. not feverish anymore. for art, i've dropped my idea on combining my topic with fashion design. too troublesome as i didn't managed to develop more if i were to concentrate on that. so after i have dropped out the fashion design idea, now i'm able to give an idea of composition for my topic. much clearer and better. i'm still wondering, until when will our coursework end?

got our report slip today. i'm glad that i passed every of my subject but on the other hand, i'm not quite satisfy too. with the conduct grading, the marks that i got. i flunk in most of my subjects especially Art and Mother Tongue. those subjects has become my weakest subject. however, i managed to get an A1 for my Math, same goes for Farah. well i don't mind what she got, i compared but there's still time for us to buck up till the start of our N level. so i'm not giving up just like that.

my parents and sis were proud with my current result as they were hoping me to improve more on my Math but at the same time they still want me to improve more till where i'll be able to.

i've already set my priorities now. i've set my target/goal for every subject. as for my march holiday, i'll enjoy my holiday and at the same time, i'll also try to give most of my day/time/hours just for studies. i've got a lot to catch up. see i'm motivated ever since i had my sucky week last week. i'm starting all a new.

netherless, i'm happy for Sirah and Ayun too. they passed their Math :D i guess, they did not expect them to pass too. love them both no matter what :D

as i said earlier on, i'm starting all a new. yes, i was a little pissed off just now. but i'm calm myself and just walked away before anyone hurts by it.

families? eventhough, there were a few misunderstanding between us, i can see they are trying to pull through every single problems occur. whatever it is, we are still one big family :D

as per usual, i'm trying to start afresh tomorrow and now i'm gonna pack my books for tomorrow lessons and then going to watch my oh-so-sexy drama, Spa Q! daaaaaa~

Happy belated 16th Birthday KhairulHafiz ,the chairman of 4A2! glad that you've recovered. may all your wishes come true!
& Happy 16th Birthday abang sapau, Muhd Faizal! hope your dreams will come true and keep on rocking the class + building up your body!

Now i see it

2010-03-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

i enjoyed myself today. attend Aishah's birthday party. despite all those shits happened there, but still two thumbs up :D i do not want to comment anything here i think it's their privacy. only to those who attend should know the goods and bad. then had dinner with Ayun and we planned our Anni together, still considering AGAIN. we keep on changing our plan. fickle minded.

i'm having fever right now, will be going to school tomorrow since there's rehearsal and chemistry test. ah, i'll endure for the rest of the day tomorrow.

i'm glad but not happy that i'm not hurt this few days. even the littlest thing could make things worst, but we managed to work it out. its all about 'making sense' and find fault at a reasonable reason. so yeah Ayun, three words and i'm sure you know what it is. thanks for being the best! huhu!

so happy that i could die. nyet!

2010-03-05T23:32:00.001+08:00

currently mood : cheerless &

2010-03-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

just shut the fuck up cause it doesn't concern you. it only between me and her. you are exaggerating this matter y'know. i've didn't EVEN say a word yet about you -_____-"

i didn't told him to back it up for me. since he has a nicer and proper way to do it, why not. now you're jumping into conclusion and being sarcastic, just like me? that's so not necessary. f y i, i didn't even SHARE it to anyone except Alun. so you just diam boleh tak! takde kene mengene dengan kau kan! kau memang gini eh, suke masuk campur. betul ah kata orang. oh curious who is the people? it's not necessary to tell you either!

tsk! school is short today ;D i love every lesson :D but i felt kinda weak since morning as i checked my temperature, i'm having a fever and a slight cough. when i got home after school, my temperature rise even higher. i felt like fainting when i walked home. mama knew that i wasn't in a good mood but still she gave me the cold shoulder just now but when i went out, she was being polite to me. i kept quiet about my sickness from mama cause i know i won't be allowed to attend CCA if i'm sick.

not every moment, a weak girl can stand up on its own. neither do you. YOU ARE NOT PERFECT, so am i. i have a sense of humour.

i'm out.

get it right and end it.

2010-03-04T19:17:00.003+08:00

" you can do whatever, you can say whatever "

i want me to be happy like before. i want us to have a peace mind. i want us to concentrate more in studies. even though, deep inside the heart there's still grudges but i won't show it and make revenge :D no worries. i'll let this be a lesson for us. and listen, nobody is perfect, reflect on yourself too babe rather than you advising us. its all started from me getting so 'urgh' with your 'urgh' behaviour.

i hate school today. i carried a lot of books today. it's so heavy, obviously. CLD was very boring but interesting. it inspire me though xD accompanied Ayun awhile and i'm home by then.

see, minor act can cause a big argument. (my friends, don't bother for this part & stop asking is it about you guys. cause its NOT) a very strict high tone of quarrelling just about 'sound'.

so ya, even the littlest could make things worst. this is for generally. cause it hurts/pissed us off so easily/deeply and that's the reason for argument. get it? this is what i've just experienced a seconds ago, yeah it's been so long they argued in the presence of me.

tsk! i'm glad tomorrow is Friday. i'm glad tomorrow will be having CCA. i'm glad my weekends is packed with plans. going for Pertapis Youth organization on Saturday morning and then out with them and on Sunday will be going to Tampines for a birthday celebration. Aishaaaaah! miss ya :D

i'm done. bye!

So sad i could die.

2010-03-03T20:05:00.004+08:00

I'M SO TIRED ...

chemistry had 2 practical, p.e had physical training and then long jump + high jump and at last i could overcome my phobia. hehe. during recess something happened, i don't wish to be a busybody to type it here. math was manageable. english was very RELAXING. had rehearsal after school. it was better than the previous rehearsal. weeeeeeee~ still can do better and bought soya bean and home sweet home!

i sprained my ankle. i'm so tired.

life has been good nowadays despite facing some troubles in school but all i have to do is calm myself and pretend everything is okay. i've been keeping things to myself this few days. i've been keeping quiet lately in school. been faking up all those smiles and when i'm down people tried to shaked me of just like that. that's hurtful when you have nothing against that people. i tried to picture myself in a lonely situation and i guess, nobody wants to be that way. i've been out from the rest. i know, this few days the littlest thing could easily get on my nerve but all i did was pretend nothing and kept quiet and err change the facial expression(who doesn't when they have no mood?).

people do have problems. as i have the most adults in the house, i learnt more values and that's the reason why i didn't act anything harsh. only when i couldn't help it, i'll start to cry. i know about people's problem but i did NOT INTEFERE in their problem. i did not brag about their problem and tried to be a heroin to confront them.

Ayun said i'm too quiet in reality to voice out. cause i can't do it. whenever i'll try to do it, i'll start to tears out due to anger.

i need something to freshen up this thing. i need an eraser to erase those off. those thoughts i have for her/them. i admit, i did made some mistake in between. you have your flaws, i accept it. i have my flaws, i don't think you'll have the heart to accept it. despite still under misunderstanding, i still talk to everyone in a normal. sometimes i feel like quitting school 'cause i don't want to face all those shits in school. i hate reality. but that's what they called life.

you wannt comment about what i said earlier on, just stfu cause i don't need it that much as it doesn't concern me NOR you.

bye, i need a break. maybe a game? hehe.

crawl back into love.

2010-03-01T19:54:00.002+08:00

MONDAY BLUE, VERY BLUE, VERY BLUEISH VERY BLUR VERY DISHEARTENING VERY BORING VERY PLAIN VERY LONELY!!!!!!

nyahahhaa! that feeling was all in the morning. this guy last minute went back home and decided not to go to school just because of 'some confidential matter' . tsk! i was having doubts in the morning, planning of taking early depart 'cause i find most of them are so busy with each other. so all i did was just daydreaming in class. Sirah cheer up :D you can come to me anytime okay dear, i won't turn you down.

Syafiq was the 'man of sport' for this year presentation. quite inspiring, not bad :D then practice for an hour and called it a day. met Ayun as we have to settle some stuff between us and all turned out to nice because i tried to control the matter. see :D but still, you're wrong Ayun! heh no matter what i won't leave ya. huhu!

reached home, no food so i did my homework and i'm done and over with. gonna upload the pictures with Yasmin + Kak Syida soon.

ape nak jadi, jadi lah. you want to be like proud and so on, i won't care :D its your life, the decision is yours. i won't interfere in your life as i think you don't need me to be busybody huh? say whatever about me, backstabber, 'using' type of girl, come on those are like 2006? what are we now? so the only thing i will do is just ignore and mute. my heart is open for anyone who is willingly to be friend :D i stopped Ayun to do something harsh because i still care about the friendship. so yeah.

thats all. i'm out,bye!

favorite boy ):

2010-02-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

red cross flag day was fun :D thanks mama, papa for donating quite a lot. met them halfway. separate with classmate halfway. met Ayun, Sirah and the rest halfway and report to school back.

town with ernie, sirah, ee yesterday was quite okay. saw abg hiddir and a few of friends. all of us were already exhausted by 10pm, decided to went home.

had tuition today. day out with Kak syida was fun! we did some catching up together, went bugis for lunch and window shopping. mata rambang babe. then off to Northpoint to window shopping again and off home.

if you're sick and tired, let it go. see, you're not telling and i've been jumping to conclusion. is that what you want? &by leaving me to cool down myself won't make anything better. it'll worsen up our condition. thank you and welcome dear.

i'm out.

tora aah ah eh!

2010-02-26T22:13:00.003+08:00

i've been thinking how we used to be back then, when we didnt have to live. we start again.

for the past few days in school. alot of misunderstanding, emotional breakdown, practices, assignments, losing its self-esteem and such. quite challenging but i guess there's more up next. all i have to do is just endure and yes i hope i manage to cope with those :D

i had practices for three days straight and today. thursday was like my half day, i went home and spend time with family ; 2nd bro, mama papa and niece. watched santau together and thanks to the effects, it made me shout and hug mama tightly. tsk! so i asked mama out on that day cause i need a break. went to northpoint and shopped a lot at Watson. bought a garnier's product ,make remover, l'oreal foundation, new za casing compact and foood! hahaha. then had dinner outside with them, walked around again and home sweet home.

finally, the whole speech day selection and dancesteps is all completed. so tiring! but i'm loving the dancestep. hehe. lets all give the best ya girls ? :D Cg Z was being 'sweet' (haha) cause for the last pose, he let those who are leaving the school this year to be in front. i guess, all of us was infront kan? if i'm not mistaken. huhu. i went home a lil late but i guess still on time.

right now, home alone. kept singing and screaming because i was bored. i've yet take my bath 'cause i'm scared. hahaha. waiting for mama papa to reached home. additional, i'm hungry. papa going to cook something for me later.

i'm sleepy and need to wake up early and breakfast with Ayun[: then we'll be off for our Red Cross Flag Day. super lazy! i don't feel like going cause our station will be at Bukit Gombak, might as well i go to mummy house.tsk! luckily it'll be counted for our CIP hours as i really want my CIP hours to get gold again. sis, i need CIP hours, is there any event for PY? tsk. sounds like desperate. ok skip! so will be going home straight tomorrow since i'll be meeting my girls at 4pm for some event. till now, i could not decide what outfit should i wear tomorrow.

on the sad note, my mp4's screen cracked badly. and i am not happy. 'cause for like five days of going to school and fro i did not listened to it and when i really wanna listen to it, it's spoilt. but luckily, i can still hear songs. hehe. the screen jangan harap, haprak dok! sungguh bengang!

whatever it is, my handphone is my second solution to this problem. haha, shall not buy a new one cause i don't think it's necessary. thats all for now, i want to (still couldn't figure a thing to do) bye!

Selfish .

2010-02-23T18:23:00.006+08:00

this is so disheartening. thanks Arina :D thanks Babygirl for the hug + motivation and thanks Ayun for encouraging me. yes i still have time but i need to be good from the start.

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zeeeeeeeeeeeeep! now my backbone are aching since yesterday. mama massage my body yesterday, not better but worst because i had my practice earlier on. i had a great laughter with friends at P.A just now. received bad news about some friends of mine. then i'm home. yesterday totally like a hell, my bags were too heavy till i took cab home after cca. cca was so tiring. school timetable was so draggy yesterday.

this earth is becoming too warm..... i hate this. i'll get prespire a lot. oh ya, because of my bestfriend i easily get emotional, this sucks macam emo girl -_____-"

OHHH! without realizing tomorrow

huhu. i pretend to forgot but i didn't. we stay till this far ,i'm happy :D

one time, one moment

2010-02-19T22:59:00.002+08:00

I love today's timetable eventhough the books are heavy to be carried around. all the way with Nana and i find her so gifilafa eh! went home alone, nobody was at home. i hate the door house, i hate prespiring after having my cold bath after a long day. irritated sungguh! CCA was okay okay. i love my girls and boys :D opppps, i just shouted at them just to get their attention. tsk, bad me.

OH FCUK, you talk in your own language is it? why do you kept twisting your words and kept on blaming on us. SEE FOR YOURSELF, you're nowhere better than us. NOT EVEN OUR MOTHER to even call us children. you're knew, then shut up and learnt from your collegue, Ms T and gain more knowledge about this traditional and how our process goes like. you are threatening us, flashback what you've said lah. all of us was holding on and NEVER a TEACHER from here MADE someone CRY but you just broke the world record. you wanna see us in the presence of the big position woman, yeah we're for it :D me loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my dancers!

hehe. told mama and she agreed. you don't understand, don't interfere and even ask what i'm talking about ok. so after that went off to Mac with Elah, Eika and Wanee! haha, now i know my talent girls, i'm good in listening and replying. HAHA. they talk and talk and talk and talk until we had goosebumps because last topic was on GHOST. haha by then it was 7.15pm. we didn't realize the timing at all, so we went home. Eika with Wanee and me went home with Elah. we planned to do our homework together at Yishun tomorrow since both of us are free and got piles and piles of homework to do! so yeah meet ya tomorrow Elah!

i've yet find my dress for this Sunday event. haiz. so within three hours i've done two homeworks. ART is the worst nightmare of all because i don't want to get stressed up with it again. a lot of revision needs to be done by the end of next week. a lot of test coming up.

Ayun is working. poor him.. he wanted to meet me tomorrow but i don't want as i've promised myself not to meet him until Monday/Tuesday. sorry ya. ily!

okay i'm done. daaaaaaaaa~

2010-02-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA, BODOH NYE AKU!

ignore my previous post, the last few paragraph. sungguh emotional, so not the ME for now. i don't know, for the past few weeks or so i've been putting my negative thoughts aside. far away from my life and always kept positive. for sure Farah will know the real me. the stupid sensitive mintak kene sepak girl. hahaha. whenever or whoever did the littlest mistake, i'll start to talk about it and then it bring my mood down. that's me and maybe that's my stupid past.

while i was browsing through Ayun's documents, i saw my picture during last year zaman '' lepak '' ( okay shh! ) time, i saw my hair, my clothings, my act gerek semua. ok i seriously need to to slap myself whether that's me or not? especially during my secondary twos. that's the most worst of all. dah mula nak grow up katakan -____-"

ok whats up with me talking bad things about myself? but who cares that's me and that's the reality. but i'm sure i'm not like those type of girl already. now most priority is N level :D followed by the rest. heheheeeee!

aniway Hairul ILY :D

baby we'll never ever be apart .

2010-02-18T19:50:00.003+08:00

Hi! before i start posting about my daily life and before i forget about this special girl since i knew when both of us were in Primary days...

Happy 15th birthday Sharinah which i prefer to call her as Rina :D zaman dulu, kakak adek angkat kata kan? so yeah up till now i still regards her as my sister, eventhough the difference of our age is just by a few months? glad that you're still Rauff. seems that you lead a happy life with Rauff and glad that your history with him doesn't repeats. last long ya :D and you have one year to go for your big examination, strive for your goals okay and do well. i know you can :D have a joyous celebration tomorrow with your loved ones. i'm sorry i won't be there again to give you hugs and stuff like the past few years. as you know, i'm not staying at the same area so that's the reason why you're missing me truckloads right? heh ! good luck in everything you do and thanks for being so hyperactive when i'm with you. mira miss you lah dear :D again, Happy birthday dek !

i'm so exhausted. hmm not so, just that my body are totally worn out. yesterday P.E was like shiokkkkkk! 3 sets of physical training and five rounds around the carpark unlike 2.4km. haha. then it was cca on the afternoon, was just memorizing steps and helped each other when they forgets. then hang out with Eika and Wanee :D Elah has to go with her boyfriend same goes with Farah and i didn't know about it up till i asked her. since i had no plan yesterday, that's the reason i decided to like hang out with Eika and Wanee.

today's timetable is so draggy. i went school alone, so went out from house 6.45-6.50 and reached Sembawang around 7am, then took my own sweet time to the Sp toilet and then off to school. it was still early as i was just on time i think. Physic was okay, im able to get hold of that new topic already. i drew a cartoon on my school diary while listening. then Fire drill practice, Ms Tan was so cute '' OKOK EVERYBODY LEAVE EVERYTHING AND LINE UP OUTSIDE NOW ! '' hahahaa, in a panic way! the reason she is like that was she doesnt want out class to be the last class to assemble at the field. then assemble, skip! C.H next : BORING! recess. then English : on comprehension/BORING! and then Math test :D i was lookin forward for that only, not so difficult for most of us. CLD was just like another ART lesson. haizzzz .

after school met Ayun and home! I Don't Like Thailand's Ghost-Searching!

because of you, i'm throwing my temper to my parents. anything they said i easily got irritated. i don't have the answer why today i'm acting differently. i gave up to the littlest thing. i can't take it what he replied to me ' fair keeeee ? ' its like gawd damn it ok. i treat you with fair FOR ALL THIS WHILE and now you said i don't understand you.

punyalah geram. it should me saying that sentence to you, ' you don't understand me '

i raised my voice while talking to parents 'cause they got the wrong words when i said tuna and blabla. forget it.

netherless, i'm stilllllllllllllllll mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. everything's going haywire. i knew that i was holding on to my tears because i hate it whenever bad things starts to happen. &i forgot that THIS SUNDAY is the lunch at hotel with aunt's friends, aunt, sis and mama. SHITTTTT! i got lots of art stuff to do, alot of homework to do. damn it. aisey bingit pah! on the brighter note, SPA Q has just started so i'm gonna watch now. bye!

just by a glance..

2010-02-15T16:41:00.006+08:00

my weekends for this week is all randomly planned. so yesterday was the actual Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day. the entire mrt was so packed, entire harbour front was so packed. mostly they alight at Harbour Front because they were going to Resort World Sentosa, bus also packed. they had to queue for a long time. so we reached to..

we had to climbed the staircase which is so high. very tiring! i started to laughed loudly and talked loudly, until she said i sound so hyper and happy. and walked the mount which is so steep,very steep. i was prespiring non-stop.

stopped halfway and camwhore. a lot of tourist and chinese people. we snap, they looked at us. then continue walk ahead, then stopped again. then a group of teenagers, my age i think came, so we went off. they disturb us with the 'mentel' voice. decided to buy water, but all out of stock. she thought of walking down to go to the toilet, but for my view, it looks scary with the trees and all. so we went back to harbour front back. thought of gong to Esplanade but when we were already inside the train at Dhoby Ghaut, we felt lazy to walk a big round to go another train, so tapped out from Dhoby Ghaut and went to Plaza Singapura. when were walking, we saw...

with Wanzy too. talk for awhile and said goodbye. had double chocolate date with her. chitchat awhile and went off to Sembawang to meet Ayun awhile. while we're in train, both of us felt so sleepy but both of us didn't sleep. i realize that. so i forgotten that i have to buy something for them both. but sadly, all shops were closed and none of them sell a bouquet of flowers. the both of them i wanted to buy is for Sirah and Ayun ): too bad lorrrrr.

so the person i spent with was...

her, Sirah. hehe, my babygirl. thanks for adding some colours to my Sunday :D me love you! not to forget, Ayun too(:

fyi, yesterday 2nd brother and mama talked about the teens around my block, so they said there's a teenager lived in 3rd storey with tatoos all. that time when i was going out last Saturday, 2nd brother saw that guy sitting at the staircase, so he thought that he was my boyfriend and if he was my boyfriend, 2nd brother wanted to bash him up. lol? no worries, i hope Ayun will not do any body art, if he were, aku rembat kau yun! hahaha. he's a good guy.

will be going to Northpoint later. tomorrow gonna watch Valentine's Day because Jessica Alba and Taylor Swift in the movie :D can't wait! i need to revise my Chemistry and Math soon.

Aniway, Happy 16th birthday to Syafiq Shahul the boss ! Happy 16th Birthday Zul Teddy! hope you enjoy your day :D
bye

more pictures @ : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=152075&id=615016599&ref=mf

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2010-02-13T21:07:00.003+08:00

Hello. firstly, Happy Lunar New year to those who are celebrating it :D eventhough i'm not happy that most library and shops were closed on the eve but still i respect your celebration. heh.

initial plan for today was to go out and get some clothing with sis at bugis. she thought that it'll be a waste trip to go there if it supposely to be half day, but when i told that to Yasmin, she said it's opened today, no half day. tsk! thought that parents will be off for holiday, so i planned to go out and all. but they are not, so i still decided to went out because i'm very bored. since Yasmin is the only person that's onlined and i'm close with, i asked her out. before that i already planned with Ayun that i'll meet him for a while. so around 3pm went out and met him, Salih was with him. then Yasmin joined, around 4pm went off to causeway with Yasmin and Ayun continued to chilled with his friends because he'll be going for his family chalet.

both of us were hungry and craving for banquet, but end up it was closed. so went to kfc, it was full, ljs not our fav! so mac'd, no choice. then went to cotton on shop since it's the last shop to be close, didn't know that sardi/faizal's friend worked there. i don't think he recognize me, so buat bodoh! then trained to AMK since no plan and the library has closed. saw cotton on again, went inside(just in case there's another stock), saw errr hairul's brother girlfriend there(: then after that, me and Yasmin went off to sit somewhere and snapped a few pictures and off to causeway again. saw Azhar and Basyar at mac'd when we were finding seat at mac'd. then i went home because my handphone went flat. as you know, i can't walk with my handphone off.

see how random is my day today! mati mati nak keluar punya pasal! nak contact Affiqah, tak tau number. cish! so tomorrow will be going out with babygirl, Sirah. hehe! safayangfang kaufau befelofo!

my school week was great. cca on wednesday was awesome and went home alone. thursday i went home right after doing my homework and having lunch with friends at broadway. friday Ayun went work ): lol but at night went out with family to bilal for our dinner. Alhamdullilah, all of us were full. i dozed off right after i changed into my sleeping wear. i managed to understand the new topic on Math, Physic as per normal 50-50, Chemistry errrr hancur! english had test and filing and i passed! c.h was just on diplomacy. art, developing into more outstanding ideas and soon on March will be going to one of the trail which is at AMK all about floral/plants. only a few will be joining because it's depending on our topic. our task for this week until next two weeks is to have 6 development ideas with different uses of medium. ok stress tak bace? hahaha.

whatever, all i know i won't waste this holiday just like that, because i need it so much. so within four days, only Monday i'll be at home. hehe! Tuesday i got an appointment already.

wait, after two hours of trying to connect my usb cable to my laptop, it's still useless. i think i'll try later on. so currently, texting with Ayun! pictures will be upload soon.

deeply involved.

2010-02-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

yes, how i wish but it will never happen because there'll be no way of turning back in time. hurhur.

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i tool early departure and spend the another half of my day by sleeping just to recover my sleeping hours back. but yet, i still felt sleepy when at night. accompanied sis in law in the afternoon, she wanted to perm her hair and it was japanese curl, i recommended it to her. very gorgeous! right now, i'm so tempted to do something to my hair but i have to refrain from it to happen. my goals is to perm my hair when i stepped out from this secondary school and wahlah! new hairdo :D

purrrrrrrrrrr! art was like adding onto my pressure, like always. and tomorrow CCA, wuhooo! will be going home straight tomorrow.

i can't for the CNY holiday and upcoming march holiday, atleast there's a short break for us. so now, goodnight and sleep tight people!

gotta feeling,

2010-02-07T21:47:00.004+08:00

WUHOOOOO! IM SO SLEEPY + TIRED !

woke up around 6am and off to aunt house. halfway i went alone, parents went for religious class. reached there and start the tuition and end 30 minutes earlier, then followed sis to meet the car tutor, abang, yeah sis seek helped from abang for her car practical. then 2pm off to facial ,parents went off to geylang first and i joined them halfway right after my facial treatment. went to city plaza alone and all the foreigner were like staring at me and look like what, i got pissed off and just gave a roll eye to them. after their massage off to search for mama's clothing at 2nd chance saw Ms Rita. off to geylang serai then bought mama clothing for the lunch event and had dinner at broadway(the new 'banquet' beside kampung melayu), we tried the tomyam soup,bean curb and rice. then off to joo chiat and bought myself a pant and contact lense.

funny part. mama thought and confirmed that she wanna take bus home but in the end. only 2 minutes of waiting for bus, she decided to flag a cab.lol. me and papa has a strong instinct. cewah! the cab fare was so unexpected, $15 from geylang to my house area?

so.... tomorrow is another day of school. bored! ok bye. someone complaining that today we seldom text to each other. sob.

are we an item?

2010-02-07T01:48:00.002+08:00

I'm so frigging bored now. my eyes are heavy but i still dont feel like sleeping since just now. but sadly i have to force myself to do so because i have to wake up at 6am later. i couldn't stop chatting since just now. barhhs!

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someone is moved with my behavour yesterday/today. the someone who went for ghost-searching. balik pergi mandi k badak! okay i can't help it already, i need to sleep right now. bye! stay tune to the next update yo.

ohwehwey!

2010-02-07T00:11:00.002+08:00

ATLAST! i took the initiative to take my usb cable and transfer all the overdue pictures to my laptop. such a easy task to do but it took me for two months to complete it.

Ayun is away with friends for ghost-searching with Zul's family. so here i am spending my time on the net. yesterday ; saturday i went out with Ayun and his friends. they need to take the singapore visitor's brochure at Town area. so we did. i was feeling uneasy at that point of time due to certain reason. then off to KFC to have lunch. saw familiar faces but i don't know who. then me, Ayun and Salih off to Night safari while the rest went to Geylang(?) took train to Sembawang and took 980 to yishun area, after Caltex. we thought it's just nearby but no, it was not after we had walked for a long distance. while on the way, saw P and they were holding on to their roll, i was shocked and i quickly walked like suddenly. then saw bustop, i asked Ayun to go and checked, so we took the 138 and off to Zoo. i asked a stupid question and they laughed. sheeeesh! it was a little bit long ride from the place we board the bus.

reached. went to Night safari. we went there because the boys want to get a job at Ben&Jerry. Ayun was confused a bit, so he called his cousin, Nurra. she reached few minutes after that. by the way, we three were holding on to something urgent that has to let go on the spot but too bad, we hold it till they filled up the application form. then cabbed to Yishun and went to Northpoint awhile since i need to buy a new scarf. saw alot of malay pupils. 'all eyes on me' ceh. then waited for mama and papa at fairprice, the guys went off first. reached home by 8pm.

aniway, i've cut my fringe. much neater and shorter. but i dont think so it's nice. later morning had to wake up in the morning to go to aunt house, having tuition and then off to facial at bukit batok and off to geylang since mama wanna shop some stuff for herself. and i feel like buying a new pants.

past few days i've been going home late. cca on wednesday and friday and i was shocked, like almost of the sec ones turned up. tak pernah nampak begitu ramai! unexpected things happened but i don't wish to be extra about it. thursday i skipped my remedial and went to Bukit batok to meet parents and aunt since papa was not well. OHYA! i love monday's assembly. haha, beatbox but not the rap. haha.

oh-oh a friend of Dirah saw me and sanggop tell me from a-z . haha, macam cool gitu.

2010-01-31T19:12:00.001+08:00

pantat betul. aku cocok pantat kau dengan pin baru tau! tipu tipu tipu lagi. if i knew you're back today, i won't be like so crazy missing you. i thought wednesday and that's why i'm reacting such way but in the end, you're back right now. aku sepak kang!

the perfect distraction.

2010-01-31T16:42:00.003+08:00

i had a good sleep eventhough i miss this kid so much xD

i woke up and was down with fever. my body felt warm when i tried touching it. supposingly to follow parents to mosque for some religious talk but i was too sleepy and told mama i don't wanna go. next week perhaps. so i was home alone on a new home for the first time, i thought it gonna be creepy but no, i felt as if i was at woodland :D mama not cooking so when they reached home, they bought some food for me to eat. then took my bath and helped them painting the door and halfway i stopped because i wanna do my art. oh by the way, while i was painting papa switch on the radio to Warna and the current tuned in was ; kucinta, kurindu - nurul ajai. while i was singing to that song, then i realize that it was Ayun favourite song): the time we at grandlink and on the phone. sob.

alright gotta do my art now. bye!

pray for ya'll safety.

2010-01-30T17:34:00.003+08:00

im so tired now. very tired. i received a message from Ayun around 6am and it disturb my sleep ): he was getting ready to went out from house and kept on updating me. i forget to silent my handphone and that's the reason why i kept replying to his text and when he ask me this ' nba? ' i replied ' tengah sleeping. ' haha. by 8am, mama woke me up and i get ready to out with parents. i got the very last sms from Ayun and it was %^$#$^@ !! just hush Ayun.

initial plan was to go to IMM meet abang, but it was cancelled so went to Bukit batok to have breakfast. little niece was very cute! i shall upload her videos and photos soon :D then mama went off to mami's house so me and papa went down to Redhill to collect sis's camera. is there any such things as ' you are not suppose to touch the lense at all. if not it will break down the whole system ' crap! then bused to Bukit batok, papa wanted to buy a sandal for himself and we had to walk walk walk and then walk again to the interchange because i was craving for icecream at Mac'd. saw an accident on the way to interchange. tak tau pula mat mat pun kepo :D heh. so after that, walk back to mami's house and it was like 'FINALLY I REACHED!'

i thought i can relax myself but not! i had to babysit little niece and had to join to do kuih tart with mami,mama and kak jan. 5pm i stopped and went online.

i think i'll be sleeping soon. how i wish i have anyone to msg/kol to let me express those out ):

weak ah mira! obviously i am because Ayun pampered me too much like how mama pampered me. that's the reason why we're hardly be separated like me and mama,papa. hehe D:

okay lah, wanna surf net and karaoke-online by myself to keep me busy. bye!

2010-01-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Love is only a chapter in a guy's life but to a girl, its the whole book.

but still i can survive :D

Wildest imagination

2010-01-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAI HEY HI HELLO HOLA ALOHA HULAA !

this gonna be a short post cause im sleepy and wanna chat with my only Ayun ;D so tomorrow morning till wednesday Ayun will be out for his vacation with his mother to Batam. safe journey to and fro ya :D so since i'm free this weekend, no busy contacting all i'll be busy doing my school work, my art and more. once he's back, we'll meet :D

had cca today and parent briefing. it was quite interesting for the ITE talk, well i'm not aiming for Nitec obviously. i've my own expectation and goals too. i'm still considering of taking O but hmm. not sure. all i know, i wanna get less than 18 points :D since mama wants me to be a teacher, i'll try but not promise :D i have already planned after my N with my girls. haha office kape!

stop talking about school. so now its me, nowadays i easily get dehydrated and nauseous. people are getting sick but not for me. how weird. only my backbone is aching badly. i think i should ask mama to bring me for a backbone screen. sakit ok! i've been going home and did my work and did not online for several days. reading malay novels and watching tv is what i've been doing. like for sure, i did not abandon my assignments.

huhu. can't wait to be sweet sixteen. it's still a long way to go. anyway, i've not been going out with friends that much during the weekends and weekdays. my resolutions for the start of the year. my only plans with Ayun for this year before N will only be on April. so happy! i'm not sad if we couldn't get to celebrate anything or what, but as long we're fine and understand with each other, i'm okay and happy for it :D he must be blushing because i post about him huh? stopppppit! tak perlu.

chinese new year is coming. i'll be off from Singapore for four days. and now i'll stop here. dadaaaaaa!goodnight!

Happy 16th birthday suhaillah!

2010-01-26T19:06:00.005+08:00

Hello, i'm back again :D sorry to leave my blog dead. last week was a very busy week for myself. i was busy with cca since wednesday-friday. friday was the cca open house for the sec ones, some shits happened in the end but i get over it. we felt so nervous when it comes near to our performance in school eventhough it was not the first time for most of us. after that, went to have dinner with Ayun and went to P.A for awhile and home sweet home with Ayun for the last time to Woodland. at night, i had to settle some school assignments before i went to sleep because last saturday i had to pack everything inside the box and all and had to went out with family to settle some stuff. and we reached home on saturday night was around 3am?

yeah, when it strikes 12am on Saturday midnight, i didn't have the chance to texted Ayun. i remembered and wanting to go home on the spot but sadly i can't. since Ayun's handphone was spoilt and i couldn't remember Wan's number, i did not text Ayun at all. until i reached home. he was mad, double mad when i purposely said it was just a normal day for me.

reached home on that time, had to do last minute packing everything all. so slept at 3am. woke up at 8am, breakfast with uncles, brother's friends and my family at 888 plaza for the last time together. then went back to the house and the shifting moment has started by then. me, kak siti, au, emma, edora, birin, wan had to stay at woodland while the rest of my family and brother's friends went to Yishun first. talk, sit, rot and was bored. did some job also lah, duh.

around 1.30pm was the last trip to woodland and off we went to Yishun by van and lorry. i snap some few pictures of it but too lazy to upload it up here. unpacked some stuff, eat, chatchat and all went home by 5-6pm.

yesterday i felt weird for going to school from Yishun. Ayun fetched me since he scared that i'll tend to get lost. i went out 6.10am and it was damn early! reached sembawang at 6.20am and so decided to eat at mac'd since got plenty of time. school was so draggy yesterday. had presentation during C.H and since Adi was away for his takraw match and Faizal was sick, me and Farah had to do those presentation by ourselves. THE ASSEMBLY WAS BORING. i slept halfway and school ends at 3pm and i print some art pictures and off home. did art and homeworks first before i got changed into home clothes.

watched projek cerpen yesterday! i laughed a lot :D

so this weeek gonna be slightly busy. tomorrow i had no plans, so will be heading home straight after school. thursday will be having enhancement programme on Chem. Friday CCA followed by parent's briefing.

heard news from Ayun that almost all of the takraw boys is having a fever include himself. and most of my friends is having a fever too. even the teachers. even little niece but she has recover from it.

lately, i've been okay with friends? just told Farah that she's a bit different lately BUT we did not argue okay :D but with Ayun, hahaha abit lah and it's just once for this week. I'VE TO START REVISING FOR MY CHEMISTRY AND MATH NOW! since there's a test on both subject tomorrow.

&aniway, Happy 16th Birthday Suhaillah ! gosh, i forgot that tomorrow is already 27th Jan when i actually remembered your birthday. so sorry su, we had no plans for you this year. hais and it was supposedly to be the sweetest mini birthday celebration for you this year with us ): maybe a belated one? hehe. may you do well in your O's and wishes come true okay. aku sayang susu lah ! :D

daaaaaadaaaaaaa!

unpredictable, they said.

2010-01-21T21:24:00.005+08:00

i prefer today than yesterday. yesterday was a bad day for yourself huh? it's not all about you only. try to put yourself in my shoe when your teacher called you and asked for help and the girls wanna tag along? try put yourself in mdm R's position. don't ever think of your tiredness all. we suffered,walked under the hot sun with those heavy bags with uniform on, carrying the costume turn by turn because it was freaking heavy. and reached school got another lecture and couldn't memorize the dancestep.

you don't have to give me that look because i don't care. it wasn't my fault or much better our fault. if you're angry about this, so why you're not angry with anyone of them? yes i talk behind your back, saying that your way of shouting was like one of a kind.

i don't need a sorry. i don't need you to pretend normal to me cause those are not sincere. like i said, i'll never forget eventhough i've forgave that person no matter what.

on a brighter note, after all the suffering of getting a rent house. we got ourself a unit at Yishun area. Alhamdullilah, mama liked it and i was so pleased because it's close and convenient for all the family members. nobody knows what kind of situation we've been through for the past one year. sigh.

like i've post in my private blog. i can never cope with my stress. i hate being pressurize,who doesn't right? at times i understand people's situation but nobody knows how am i. yesterday, i need a pair of listening ears but nobody was there :D i went home alone, bought malay dance stuff alone eventhough i find it rare for myself cause i've never been this lonely before. i was disappointed. thanks farah for the thoughts.

and this weekend i'm really busy with my families. time flies fast, sunday i won't be living in this flat anymore. so much memories that i'll sure miss a lot.

last but not least, thanks Ayun. a great guy :D

&another conflicts, till when this will stop. pity mama,papa.

2010-01-19T22:12:00.002+08:00

huhuuuu its 10.13pm and its time for my sleep but sadly i cant because i took my nap just now afternoonn.

school was a bit relax for me today because english and m.t was just normal. art period till ft? it was quite okay but a bit stressed up. how i wish i can easily get distinction for art without cracking my brains the most.haha. i accompanied ayun to get changed to takraw attire and off i went home.

now i would like to talk about yesterday's assembly talk. it is interesting if you are really paying attention to what the speaker said. get it ayun?=.= i learnt a lot from that talk. how to manage our emotions : anger,sadness,stress. and i tried to think positive today by karaoke just now afternoon and took my nap to cure it.

but a while ago, farah text me and asking about art preparation.bertambah lah aku nye pressure! as you know i dont like people to put pressure on me.

i prefer to work on a normal pace rather than being panic and stressed up. in the end, we ourselve will get hurt with our result.

so,dont be pressure too much lor!

on the other hand, i wanna shop rventhough i know its not the time for me but i wan new shoe. medium cut shoe or even like the latest shoe. i want a new brand watch too. but somehow i know we're facing a problems now and hence,those can wait.

i'll be moving out from this by the end of this week. still unsure where due to some matters.

alright i'm tired touching my hp screen just to update this since i'm bored. goodnight!

2010-01-17T20:13:00.002+08:00

everything happened, for sure there'll be reason behind it. they react such a way like obviously there's reason behind it. maybe i'm being too negative. but you should see for yourself, their attitude and way towards me are way different than before. i have no one else to turn to except Ayun, sis in law and sis. i don't find it sucks because i know this will just stay for awhile. i don't wish to hold grudges to anyone anymore. i forgive and forget but now i forget everything easily. i took things calmly but only Ayun knows ALL the stories because i complaint lots to Ayun. i've no pair of listening ear from a friend anymore, neither the closed one or bestest :D i don't mind because i want this year to be the sweetest year for me and for that i won't be too hot headed about something. all within myself.

school was busy this few days. had cca for Thursday. mon after school hangout with Ayun and as for tuesday i went home straight since the girls and i planned to photoshoot at my house and then they spent time with my family by watching wujud 2. wednesday p.e is all about physical training and i hate that. on the night itself i was exhausted and legs are all aching till friday. i had to endure for my cca practice but thankfully it was a short practice since we had to choose our clothes for the performance and someone is being a pain in the ass. Aisha, my junior : don't worry i'm not angry just hold with your words and i'm happy for you(: friday was a short day for everyone but not for some of us. i had to stayback in school because of ne meeting. we had to do filming about NE for cld lesson. tunggu punya tunggu, we had to stop halfway because it's still long.

so starting from next week gonna be a BUSY WEEK for some of us. i had to stayback in school for three days due to practices and CCA Open house. so yesterday i went out with family to river valley and expo but before that off to have our lunch at Brickwork, mama and mami were talking about their past times in Alexandra/Bukit Timah, their kampung days. so yeah that is my maternal's bonding area all. just now had to go for tuition and off i proceed with my plans.

Vampire assistant was quite okay but full with fantasy. haha! rate 3/5 for that.

okay got to finish up my art drawing and revision for tomorrow's test. Goodnight!

careless

2010-01-16T22:12:00.001+08:00

SHIT! I HATE THIS. i blog a long one just now and this stupid connection just made me lost my entries in just a click. damn! malas nak blog, tomorrow a very proper one. Goodnight!

love cannot be compared.

2010-01-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

wow, amazing. i've been not updating since Monday.

school life? been busy very much. Monday spend time with Ayun and i'm home. Tuesday the girls went to my crib to have a short photoshooting for our Art, thanks Sirah to be our photographer. good effort dear! they spend the whole afternoon at my house. they find little niece cute. haha, which baby is not cute right? so Wednesday, i can remember is the physical training during P.E.. it was damn tiring & seriously i never like long distance run or short. my classmate were really exhausted and during Math class and English, we are already half dead. i remembered, i nearly dozed off while listening to teacher.

i don't know why. Thursday's timetable sucks! our bags were heaavy. i never like combined humanities but just endure with it. afternoon had CCA and it was a short one. i forgot most of the steps & i was so clumsy at that point of time. i went home by train and i was dragging my leg while on the way. when i reached home, i quickly took a sit at my sofa and mama ask me why i look so weak i said, i'm having muscle cramp and tired of dancing and my backbone was aching. she pity me and told me to have my meal but i reject it cause i was too tired and lazy. so i just took two panadols to cure a bit of the pain. and i slept at 9.30pm but still feeling sleepy once i woke up the next morning.

Friday a very short day for people but not for some of us. i love friday's timetable. short and sweet. Physic was at lab, topic on Forces all. Math was on Expansion and Factorise, easy. M.T composition test, tedious thing to do. Eng, groupwork on 'courage's phrases, fun! FT was short. after school had lunch with Ayun and he kept on saying this ' lu belum settle dengan wa eh ' oh whatever and saying ' oh its because of my hair right you becoming like this ' mintak smack lor budak tu xD opps! then i went back to school and the rest of NE ambassador was late. had to do filming on NE and it took a long time. the rest of us, me, Arina, Syafiqah, Ash was just sitting one corner and chitchat because it's not our turn to shoot the film. and end up, we end it halfway. what a waste to wait but nevermind atleast i'll get a bit of CIP points and that'll help me :D

i went to P.A for awhile, less than 30 minutes and i'm off to home. reached home rot with my school uniform and at night, Kak Siti asked me out to follow abang and her to Mustafa area to exchange tyres. so i did and here i'm blogging.

supposingly later will be having tuition at 10am but i-dont-know-what-happen-when-i-remembered-it-was-saturday. so mama say we just proceed with our plan to go out. maybe going clinic since mama is not feeling that well and we'll be going to Expo to see the showcase on wedding and it can help for my Preparation on fashion but before that we have to go to River Valley to take sis's camera. hmph! Sunday no choice, went to aunt house to have tuition.

great eh! i got 10 homeworks + 2 revisions to do! sigh i'm tired. lets sleep! goodnight!

began a brand new book.

2010-01-10T20:50:00.002+08:00

Hello. how was your weekends?

hee, mine was fine. yesterday i had fun but not when its time for us to go home. hee :D glad everything is fine right now. so today, i stayed home. eating chocolates and egg prata only till now. mama is cooking right now since papa is pestering her to cook. i did my school work today. woke up with a headache. and it stays up till now. it sucks. sobs.

and friends, happy schooling tomorrow! i hate tomorrow's time table. i want Ayun to fetch me at tekong! hehe ^ ^ ! so currently watching 'Anak Bapa' at Sensasi, old movie. papa kept on laughing. hahaha and since just now he planned to go out for dinner with mama and myself but mama declined it. ape nak jadi, aku dah lapar gile, mengidam corn beef lagi. aiyayai~

and today's weather is not good. too hot, hais. alright i better go and have my dinner right now since Ayun is doing his homework as i've promised him that i'll eat :D goodbye and goodnight!

2010-01-09T22:00:00.002+08:00

I'm scared the way you react.

lastly, i failed to be the best.

take it off.

2010-01-08T23:27:00.007+08:00

Lets say this together with me, Thank God its Friday & it's the end of the first week of school. left with weeeks and weeeks of school. a challenging week for me and i can say for those who are preparing for their national examination. now i know how tensed it was. lol

everyone everybody is suffering. kinda stressing and pity them INCLUDE myself as well. i'm thankful enough that i still got my Sis to guide me through my studies :D and nobody at home is pressuring me more. lets talk about school now. lately i have been going home late, spending with friends. soon i won't be able to have those ample time to spend with friends anymore. soon there'll be enhancement programmes, cca, such programmes, remedial, preparation and all. so that's why i tend to hangout with my friends this week a lot. who knows, next week onwards all of us will be busy?

Physic was able to catch up a little bit and for the SURPRISE TEST i got 7/20. haha see how forgetful i am towards studies? same goes for Chemistry but i'm not sure of the marks we got yet. Math, i still can manage to do. still remember expansion and some of the stuff that were taught last year i think. only SOME not all. English was usual, cloze passage,letters and more to come. M.T had Diagnostic test just now and it was a bit manageable. our marks will depends on what class we'll go to. hmmm, some of us will be divided into two category : Class 1 & Class 2. a lot of admin stuff this week, so that means all of our bags were heavy.

for sure i'll shrink in no time. by the way, Mr Sulaiman will further up his studies and might probably we won't be able to see him anymore in school. a very short and sweet farewell we had with my cohord and some teachers in the hall. awwww, so touching!

lately i've been skipping my dinner meal and i'm not sure of the reason. i'm just lazy. so just now i took my dinner and i felt as if i did not ate rice for more than three days. wait, i'm not on diet alright. when i'm stress i don't like to eat heavy meals.

so tomorrow i will be having tuition tomorrow at aunt house,1pm. after that will be meeting classmates to attend Adi's little sister birthday since all of us were invited. i will be going for a while since i have a lot of things to do at home. i seriously need my sleep right now because i hardly open up my eyes and i kept yawning since i started to blog this. eeee! kalahkan orang bekerja saje.

this is long. because i feel like typing and typing. how? how should i end this post? cause i know the people who are reading this will get easily bored with all of my post cause mostly i talk about daily life and not my daily routines and plans all. see a forgetful person won't be able to update about thieir daily routines and plans. get it ? wait, i'm starting to miss my CCA, the songs and steps. hehe!

okay damn! i should stop this and wait for Ayun until i feel like sleeping already. Goodnight! & say this again, T G I F ! hehe

for entertainment, i'm bored. found these pictures under webcam's folder. oovoo moment, webcam. UGLY OR FUGLY OR DISGUSTING, dont look cause i know tak senonoh!

&i dont remember i had this short hair last year after June?